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Monday, June 12th, 2006
1:54 pm	well everyone just updating to let you all know that my most recent entries are on this web site www.xanga.com/aaaddrfreak02 <33 Current Mood: depressed (Comment on this)
Thursday, April 28th, 2005
8:49 pm	From: Chelsea L Email: FUKK YOU Time: 04-28-2005 07:41 PM Subject: FUKKK YOU Message: WUTT THA FUKK IZ YUR PROBLEM!! o0 gess who am i" who's tha biggest fuckin liar in tha world" FUKKKKK YOUUU!!! ugly ass mofo!! go suck another penis cuzz u certainly aint getting any gurlzz!!! no go ahead mr. ugly n delete this frum yur guestbook...cuz u knoe you will get embarrased when peop,e c this@!!! soo0 yuhhh......well..all i came here 2 sayy iz FUKKKK YOUU BYE mofo!! UGLY mofo! hahah thats so fucking funnny!!! Current Mood: HAHAHAHAHA (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, April 24th, 2005
7:49 pm	hey hey hey ppl im going to make this entry as long as possible so you guys better all be prepared to read.... well last night was the love of my lifes b-day party and he said before that manny couldnt make it.. knowing that i was exicted to be there with him and his family and be able to hold hima and lay with him.. i was kinda of nervous but i got of that quickly and put all that in sadnness.. i was upset becuase the first thing i saw when i went there was that manny was standing there with 1 of cesars's cousins... now wait till you hear thet whole story...... well i went there and wanted to kiss my hunnie but he doesnt want manny to know that me and him are going out which me and his cousin thinks is kinda duimb cuz one of heses days he will find out on his own... its just all a waist of time.. so yea we went in his basckyard and they all talked while i was just standing there next to cesar while he sits there not even noticing me and pretending i dont exsist....i ws like whatever and i was talking to all the ppl i though cared on the fone or with textes.. i was so pissed at cesar for not telling me that manny was going to be there... i was like going to leave right then and there... i wanted to strangle him... i mena i loe the kid but c'mon now atleast tell me if the perosn i hate the most is going to be there .... well as the night went on cesar's dog snoopy jumped on me and cesar just pushed him off and turned away..... i was like whatever.... i really dont care but ok... after all of that manny tried to hit on cesar's cuzin and it was like i wasnt even there .... but i could care less about that stupid shit....then we all went inside and they all played video games while me and the girls stayed there and watched.. before i went in i triped of the step and me and the girls just laughed.. lol they were all like yea i just did that to.. lol.. it was funny...but yea we ust sat there and watched and cesar was just starting to notice me... n top of the fact that i was upset it was also that i am getting leg surgery and i was sacred shitless and there was alot of other things.. that was just the topping of the cake you know hat i mean..? but yea we just sat there untill the girls all left and it was nust me and cesar and manny. i was on the fone with mike and mike wanted to talk to manny and he was all like mike who i dont know who mike is all because he was being an asshole...and then he was like 0o0o i know mike let me talk t him and i was like just forget it and he wa slike give me the fone and i was like know youcall himon your own god damn time you have fingures and ears... and he was all like well fuck you then and i was like no thank you... and yea... then cesar was palying a game and i wass laike manny do you want me to keep that thing of you and mike on my camera and he was like yea can i see it if you dont mond.. and yea there he goes being all nice all because he wants something that bastard.... and yea i got my camera and he sat right next to me facing away from cesra and right then and ther ei knew that he was going to do something that i didnt like you know what i mean.... well yea we watched the movie clip and he was all like hahahahahaha dn he tried ot kiss me while it was palying and i pulled away knowign that my bf was right there and even though he lied to me and made me feel like crap wouldnt mean that i could do that to him..i love him and i wont let myself make a 2nd worng.. that wont turn it right! and he said can "we" watche it again knowing that he was going to try a second time i was trying not to let it seem that i knew what he was going to do.. just to make him feel like shit.... so yea he laughed again and tried one last time and he amost got me and i pulled away and cesar turned aound and i wa scared that he would think that i kissed that ugly thing... when in fact i didnt...i would never do that to him and i hope that he knows that... i love him way to much to even think about doing that to the one that i love with all my heart and i will never love him any less no matter what he does... thats just the way i am.. .. he is the 1 and only thing in life that i care about and it would killl me if i lost him even for 1 second... i would have nothing to live for... he is my everything he cares my heart and i dont want him to break it all because of me.. as you all no i put my life and feelings im my journals online and i know that one of thses days he will see it and i could care less... one day he will find out on his own anyway so why not tell hin now .... its just i cat tell him how i feel so i put it all in my feelings in writing.. well ya thats the story.. i told you that i \t was going to be along o0o0o an i forgot something.... when mamny left me and cesar keep kissing. it was so cute i loved it.. lol!! and we layed with eachother and still kissed and watched t.v and kissed and played around.. that was the part that made me forgive him... it made me feel like he really did love me and everytime manny went away he would kiss me... thats why i wanted manny to leave.. and cesar's step dad said that i was ba\eautiful and he was like congraulations cesar.. lol i wa slike when can i hit you.. but lol yea.. and i gave him all the b-day kisses i told him taht i would give him and many many many more... he is the world to me and i would love for him to be the guy i spend the reast of my life with.. he treats me like a princess and he is there for me 110% and i love that.. i am there for him whwnever he needs me and i would die for that boy... wowo big 15. he better watch out. nest year he will be my desognated driver ... lol jk .. well him and mike will be.. mike did tjis fortune thing to me and he said whqat it yoru opirze possesion besidews me and i laughed and i said cesar and he said you will be powerful and successfull do to the people around you! lol that is what i loved.. the person that would be around me would be CESAR!!!!! lol well im going to go and think about my love!! i miss you already babe!!!! your LOVER!!!! <3 Cayla O'Brien/ Silva( hahah you wish) lol jk! lol mucho amo.<3 Current Mood: what a night (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 19th, 2005
11:57 pm	fuck me, suck me, make me bleed, kinky sex is what i need, dont go to fast but not to slow ill suck your dick so hard you'll blow, you make me scream you make me moan, when im dont you ill hear you hollar and groan, make me hurt, make me sweat, ill fuck you so hard you'll wish you never made that bet, take your fingures shove em up, take your time we'll clean it all up, a little scream hear and a little scream there, my sex is so good your heart would tear. lol ill finish it when i found out what sentences rhyme next. -lol- yeppers taht mii little rhyme im sure that i will come up with more tanjust that...lol!! Current Mood: this makes me horny!! (Comment on this)
Sunday, April 17th, 2005
12:21 pm	3 DOORS DOWN LYRICS "Let Me Go" One more kiss could be the best thing But one more lie could be the worst And all these thoughts are never resting And you're not something I deserve In my head there's only you now This world falls on me In this world there's real and make believe And this seems real to me [Chorus] You love me but you don't know who I am I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand And you love me but you don't know who I am So let me go Let me go I dream ahead to what I hope for And I turn my back on loving you How can this love be a good thing When I know what I'm goin through In my head there's only you now This world falls on me In this world there's real and make believe And this seems real to me [Chorus] You love me but you don't know who I am I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand You love me but you don't know who I am So let me go Just Let me goo... Let me go And no matter how hard I try I can't escape these things inside I know I knowww.. When all the pieces fall apart You will be the only one who knows Who knows [Chorus] You love me but you don't know who I am I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand And you love me but you don't know Who I am So let me go Just let me go And you love me but you don't You love me but you don't You love me but you don't know who I am And you love me but you don't You love me but you don't You love me but you don't know me *~ this is dedicted to mii love...1. cuz its his favortie song...2. cuz i love hym......3. because sum of the wprds are sp true!!!*~ yea u n o ho0 u r!!!! ~*CaYCaY*~ ur lover~!!! Current Mood: i love hym!!! (Comment on this)
Thursday, April 14th, 2005
12:06 am	this is all fuked up u guys.. now olivia hates me again nd chelsea is starting shyt again.. see how things repeat themsleves this is all rele pissing me the fuk off.. nd now mii mom is getting into the whole sam thing... its rele sad cuz sam might get taken to court hahahaha h0o0o well sux 4 hurr.. thats what she gets... i didnt start all of this shyt she did so its hurr own fault not miine so i could care less bout how she feels..... i was hurr friend but our friendshoip is no more... she lost that chanec. sux to be hurr.. thats why i tel ppl not to mess wit me cuz i have connections to the court nd whats funny is that they think that im lieing untill it comes ba2q nd hits them in the a.. its rele sad cuz sam even saw mii case worker. what an idiot... lol hahahahaha.. well yea n e way.... i juss wanted to say that i guess umong other things... liyk the kid of guy every gurl wishes for and hurr is sum advice... "Girls, find a guy who calls u beautiful instead of hot, who calls u back wen u hang up on him,& who will stay awake just to watch u sleep. Wait for the guy who kisses ur forehead, who wants to show u off to the world wen u are in ur sweats, who holds ur hand in front of his friends, who thinks ure just as pretty without makeup on. Wait for the one who is constantly reminding u of how much he cares about u & how lucky he is to have u. Wait for the one who turns to his friends & says..."thats her." lol dont go for sum idiot that ask u for naked pix nd shyt like that nd asks u if u would do thiss nd that to them.. thats not a real man thats a dick.. ppl juss dont get it thses days.. they think that wen they fall inlove it means to have ur man treat u like shyt.. tahts not what a man is... a man takes care of u no matter what nd isnt afraid to say i love u in front of his friends nd hug u nd kiss u nd treat u the same even though his frind are there watching him.. thats a real man... not some prick who ditches u for his friends nd pushes u away wen he accually brings u wit his friends.. nd doesnt sneak around hanging out wit gurls nd not telling... guys think that love is juss a game... and they all like to mess with gurls hearts... nd i rele think thst that is rele fuked up... gurls desreve to be treated better...i dun care what a man thinks he is no matter if u like a gerl or not i should KALL hur a hor or a slut juss for the hell of it... cuz one day she may b one of the hottest gerl sthat u no.... nd ull beg for hurr to have u nd she'll push u away. ull never get hurr baq again. and men when u break up wit a gerl that doesnt mean that u cant b friends with hurr thats juss stupid if ur not. i juss dont get men.. i need a rele man who aint afraid to hold mii hand.. i want a a kind of man , wen his feriends say is that ur gerl he holds me nd says hel yea.. i wnat a kind of man that KALLs me in the morningjuss to say hey babe or good morning beautiful or wakke up sunshine.... i wana kinda of man that is ther efor me even wen i get a lil scrap nd treats me like im his everything!!!! thats a good kind of man. wish me luck for tryin got find one!! LOve Ya ~*CaYCaY*~ Current Mood: *yawn* (Comment on this)
Monday, March 28th, 2005
6:32 pm	heyy bbl cayla cheer upp i luvv u gurll lol everyone call mee 561 929 8117.. thats brittany's away message.. lol i love it.. atleast sum1 cares bout me.....BBL ILU ANDREW (( BABYBOY)) ILU CAY ANNA N KELLIE... MA SiitE Ma KiiK AsS PrO...ILU ANDREW I lOvE Mii BaBii aNdReW..fOrEvEr KELL N CAY. thats jenni's...... i fuking hate all this stupid ass shyt u no wut i mean.. manny nd sam s nd mj keep bringing me int o all this shyt nd saying shyt 2 me ... esspecialy manny nd sam s .. god i swear ima move far far far far far away from stupid ass pll lyk this... im lyk going to kill myself if this shyt doesnt stop. i no that ur probely sayin ignore it but i cant it juss keeps coming nd i cant make it all stopp.. i mean i try 2 make it stop but more comes to me.. u no what i mean..... this fuking sux. i cant take it here n e more.. i fuking hate boca.. i mean me, sam,jenni nd shannon are all kool again it juss the ppl that think that they r better then every2 else... thats the ppl that reeally piss me the fuk off lyk nuthing u have ever seen before.. imean lyk they are all lyk ima kick ur ass.. all they are is talk. they wont do shyt ... i hope.....!!!! gee maybe i should move baq this place isnt for me.. u no what i mean........... well il post lata see ya..... PE@CE ~*CaYCaY*~ Current Mood: i hate shyt lyk dis..why me!!! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, March 25th, 2005
4:02 pm	Noenoeclue: I wish that I could hold you now .... I wish that I could touch you now ... I wish I could talk to you be with you some how .... I know... I know you're in a better place even though I can't see your face I know you're smiling down on me saying everythings okayyy.... yea thats hwta a.j said ot me..... im srry that i haent been updating lately i have just been busy that sall. i have a myspace and an xanga now... if u want to no my sn's for them let me now.... well n e way i just took a break from cleaning my room to update and make u all happy. lol well ima get baq to work... see ya :) cayla with a fuking "C" Current Mood: working hard (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, March 21st, 2005
4:00 pm	hey hey hey people. um yea i like cut my hair and now its like really short but i like it alot. me and my bro got it done from laura...... um yea i really like it alot. lol um yea so i need a bf and i heard that kellie's friend ryan thought that i was hot and when i said thet mike p was hot he waslike ima kick his ass. lol how cute. but yea i need a bf........... manny cam over lat note and was like all over me and i keep saying what about betsy and i was like did u see her and he was like yea. i said what do u think and he was like she is ok i guess.... i feel so bad for her.... i new that this she was going to happen u noe what i mean. well n e way....... he was liek trying to kiss me and shyt and his friend mike said that i was pretty and shyt and i was like good for u but i didnt say that to him lol........paulo is going to be so mad at me about my hair... he said no tto cut it shirt but i told my friend to do it however she felt it looked good and i like it alot. well n e way.... i feel so good today.. chelsea b called me and was like why did u say shyt about me to kellie and i was like i didnt say shyt... w/e u dont call me and accuss me of shyt unless u no its true or have proof and i hung ^. wow that felt great. im still her friend and all but i mean c'mon now u dont staart that shyt with people. thats 1 way u can lose friends.........what stupid people. yep... its so natsy that teirney is going out with jared..... ewwwww im like gagging that its so gross. well im out pe@ce cayla with a "c" Cayla..you know I will always love you, and I will always be here for you, you never did anything wrong, Its just me, and I want you to always remember that, you can call me whenever you want, Mwa, Love you always princess, you will live in me forever...PS: Tell your friends to stop talking shit, because they don't know what the hell they are even talking about it.. thats what jorge said in his profile but im not sure that its all true. but whatever. im ms. lonley jennie: i would never say n e thing about u. i love u. ur the best friend a girl could ever have. ur the best. im with u 110%. ur mii gurl and i love u. man u like my sis. u and kellie are the best and ill never do n e thing to hurt u guys or say n e thing behind ur baq. i mean i just can be mad at u. u have helped through alot and i love u for that. thx. kellie: thx for being there for me. u have also been there for me. i no that we have been through some hard times but its all good cuz u and jennie are the best. ur my gurls and im there for u guys 110%. ill never say n thing behind ur baq. i love u and thx for n e thing. if u or jennie need n e thing ill be there for u no matter what. thx sis. sam k: u need to stop fuking talking shyt. u always make things up and im sick of ur fuking shyt. u just want every1 to hate me cuz u aint got n e friends. u need to stop ur fuking shyt. i mean i love u and all but this shyt is all becuz of the fone call from shannon'a grandma. and my dad didnt say shyt about n e thing ok. i told her that u were friend and that she might want to call u cu zu might no where she is at. thats all. u dont have to make a big fuking deal about it. god . and dont call me a fuking slut when at the onmi dance u were the 1 with those guy when me, olivia and shannon were behind. yea thst right u need to fuking stop ur shyt. its so fuking old and ur going to lose alot of friends by doing this shyt. n e one that noes how to put songs on xange plz let me no oh and a how to put a back round on. thx love. i love u kellie, jennie, cesar, jorge, chelsea b+l and more. lol. cayla with a "c" How Could You" [Verse:] It's kinda crazy baby, How I remember things, (like where you came from and how you had nothin) I went and made you flyy, Put extras on your ride, (didn't miss a birthday now u cant even remember mine) [Hook:] U made it clear to me (you wasn't down for me), (I may be blind baby) but now I see, (you had things up your sleeve, dont even lie to me) I even heard it from your family, [Chorus:] How could you let somebody lay where I layed? How could you give her everything that we made? How could you call her all the names that you used to call me? HOw could You How Could You just forget bout me? How Could You teach her all the things I taught You? How Could You put her up to the Ghetto Karmasutra? How Could You put me in the back and give her the front seat? How Could You How Could You just forget bout me? [Verse:] You must be out ya mind, YOu got alot of nerve (to think that im gone chill after at tha shyt I heard), I damn near carried you, I could've married you, Good thing I found out b4 I bought that 7karate for ya, (I kno ur sick about) the way I found you out, (GO head and pack it out) I hope he's got room in his house, You should have thought of me b4 u hopped in the sheets, Damn I cant believe that u did this to me [Chorus] [Bridge:] boy I tried to give u everything, Can't believe the ways u repaid me, boy u had it all, But I guess my all wasn't good enough for you, Baby I've accepted it, And I aint gone trip, boy im movin on, Sometimes I cant help but think that another girl's gonna get the one thats in for me [Chorus] How could you let somebody lay where I layed? How could you give her everything that we made? How could you call her all the names that you used to call me? How could you, How could you just forget about me? How could you teach her all the things I taught you?? How could you put her up to the Ghetto Karmasutra?? IM SO SAD I MEAN I LOVE JORGE AND HE BROKE UP WITH ME. I DONT UNDERSTAND. IM SO LOST PLZ SUM1 HELP ME THROUGH THIS. I COULDNT SLEEP CUZ I THOUGHT I WAS GOING TO DIE. MY HEART KEPT BEATING REALLY FAST. LIKE I COULDNT BREATH. GEE THIS REALLY SUX ASS. death cab for cutie "Tiny Vessels" This is the moment that you know That you told you loved her but you don't. You touch her skin and then you think That she is beautiful but she don't mean a thing to me. Yeah, she is beautiful but she don't mean a thing to me. I spent two weeks in Silverlake The California sun cascading down my face There was a girl with light brown streaks And she was beautiful but she didn't mean a thing to me. Yeah she was beautiful but she didn't mean a thing to me. Wanted to believe in all the words that i was speaking As we moved together in the dark And all the friends that i was telling And all the playful misspellings And every bite i gave you left a mark Tiny vessels oozed into your neck And formed the bruises That you said you didn't want to fade But they did and so did i that day All i see are dark grey clouds In the distance moving closer with every hour So when you ask "was something wrong?" That i think "you're damn right there is but we can't talk about it now. No, we can't talk about it now." So one last touch and then you'll go And we'll pretend that it meant something so much more But it was vile, and it was cheap And you are beautiful but you don't mean a thing to me Yeah you are beautiful but you don't mean a thing to me [x2] jorge i love u more than ever. for n e 1 that doesnt no. thi sis the song that mad my brother realize that his old gf wasnt the 1 for him and he brok ^ with her. our first loved 1's: for every action there is a consiquence. dont forget the ones u love for one day u might lose them. u might think that u love tham at first but make sure thaat ull never let them go. when in doubt ur loved ones miight be the only one to catch u when u fall. dont lean one the ones who u think will help u. know all when it comes to relying on others. esspeccially when it comes to the ones u fall in love with. treat them like crap and and they might stay but eventually you'll lose them. dont expect them to come baq cuz they wont. the gates of hell are the same way. u could be sent to the gates of hellbut u have a choice. or u can stay where u are for the remaining of ur life. but u will never be able to turn baq. trust in other but also trust in urself. be urself. keep moving through all the bad.forget about that past and worry about the future. we're all the same. we think for the worst ad dream for the better. our relantionship: im srry that i ever felt that i was sunthing more to u than just a page in ur scrap book. im sorry that i was there to catch u when u fell.and held ur hand and guide u through all the sickness and pain. i opened my heart 2 u and u filled it with pain. i want nuthing more than to give u the world but or relationship is failing. we can no longer b. im srry. i will love u always and forever becuz ur my one and only loved one. i hate fuking life why does it always have to be so fuking hard. i cant believe what is happening. im such a bad friend. everybody hates me and its making me go bawq to cutting myself. its all just so fuking hard to live. i dont want to live n e more if this is my life. unless a merical happens. ima cut till i beeld to death and lie awake on the floor. the love of my life is my only strenght in this life that god has giving me. if i lose him. i lose all and i shall fall in the depths of deaths arms. Penis breath, a lovers dread, is what you get, when you give head, unpleasant as it tends to be, be grateful that he doesn’t pee, its times like this you wonder why, you bothered reaching for his fly, but its too late, cant be a tease, accept the fact, get on your knees, you know you got a job to do, so open wide and shove it thru, lick the tip, then take it all, don’t drag your teeth or he might bawl, slide up and down, use your tongue, and feel the precum start to run, so when the fuck's he gonna cum, just when you cant take anymore, you hear your lovers might roar, and when he hits that real high note, you feel it oozing down your throat, salty sticky, yucky stuff, okay already that enough, lets switch you say before you gag, and what’s your revenge your on the rag!! a peach is a peach, a plum is a plum, but a kiss isn’t a kiss without some tongue. So open ur mouth, close ur eyes and give ur tongue some exercise! guyz get head,fuck in bed,girls suck dick,play a trick,drink that 40,get to horny,smoke that weed,do that speed,birth control,rock'n rol,dirty dancing,fuck romancing,condoms rip,freasman trip,shake ur ass,we got class,school is hell,sex is great,were the class of 2008!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Strawberry are sweet, lemons are sour, how many hoes can u fuck in an hour?? Bitch* *B*is fa Beautiful *I*is fa Irritable *T*is fa Talented *C*is fa Cutie *H*is fa how hard ima ride ya man cause YOU call me a BITCH.. LOL heres a song all the children love!!!!......fuck fuck fuck a duck screw a kangaroo finger bang a orangutan ... do the monkey 2!!!Everyone sing heres the second verse clap your hands here we gooo....!fuck fuck fuck a duck screw a kangaroo 69 a porkiepine dude like wanna go 2 the zoo?!?!?!.... Alrighty then thrid verse clap clap clap your hands again! ........ Fuck fuck fuck a duck screw a kangaroo rape a frog hump a dog MAN I LOVE THE ZOO!! If u need a nickel, I'll give u a dime, If you need a man, BITCH DONT FUCK WITH MINE!! this girl and her boyfriend wanted to have sex, but she shaired a bunk bed with her little brother- she slept on the top-but that didn't stop her from wanting to have sex with her boyfriend. so one night she and her boyfriend where in her bed and her little brother was peacefully sleeping in his bed underneat them. the girl didn't want to want her little brother to wake up and no what she was doing, so she and her boyfriend made up code words.if they wanted the other to go faster they would say lettuce, and if they wanted the other to go slower they would say tomato. later that night the little brother woke up and heard them saying LETTUCE, TOMATO, LETTUCE, TOMATO! so then the little brother said "will you guys stop making sandwichs up there, you're getting the mayonnaise all over me!" lol...get it? There was a little girl and a little boy in a sand box. The little boy pools down his pants and asks "what is this?" and the little girl said "I dont know." Then the little girl pooled down her pants and asked "what is this?" and the little boy said "i dont know." So then they went to their houses and the little girl asked her mom "what is this?" and her mom answered "that is your garage, you dont want boys to stick their car in your garage." so the little girl said "ok mommy." the little boy asked his dad "what is this?" and his dad answered "that is your car, you want to stick your car in girls garages." so the little boy said "ok daddy." So the next day at the sand box the little boy and girl shared their information with eachother. then time pased and then they went home. the little girl went to her mom and her mom asked "y the hell is there blood all over your hands and shirt?" and the little girl answerd, "well, the little boy tried to stcik his car in my garage, so then i pooled off his back wheels!!"... Current Mood: i love jorge....hahahaha (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, March 18th, 2005
12:42 am	I WANT JORGE BAQ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HE BROKE ^ WITH ME CUZ OF THE MILES, BUT I GUESS HE HASNT HEARD THE EXPRESSION " NOT EVEN MILES CAN TEAR US APART".IM SO SAD. IMA o.d MY SELF. aaaddrfreak: blah blah aaaddrfreak: man he is ugly XGaurdianStrifeX: Blarg aaaddrfreak: oh shyt wrong im aaaddrfreak: lol XGaurdianStrifeX: lol aaaddrfreak: lol aaaddrfreak: so what have u been up to XGaurdianStrifeX: Not much, I was a a play aaaddrfreak: awwwww aaaddrfreak: i heard aaaddrfreak: lol aaaddrfreak: how cute XGaurdianStrifeX: Why cute? aaaddrfreak: i duno aaaddrfreak: cuz im in band and i have ot do that shyt XGaurdianStrifeX: Awesome XGaurdianStrifeX: The play was awesome XGaurdianStrifeX: I loved it aaaddrfreak: lol aaaddrfreak: awww aaaddrfreak: http://www.xanga.com/home.aspx?user=aaaddrfreak02 aaaddrfreak: lookie!!!!! XGaurdianStrifeX: What do you mean I don't like you anymore XGaurdianStrifeX: I love you aaaddrfreak: lol aaaddrfreak: did u read both aaaddrfreak: lol aaaddrfreak: i made 2 aaaddrfreak: i love my journals XGaurdianStrifeX: Yea aaaddrfreak: lol aaaddrfreak: i love them aaaddrfreak: did u seemy brother XGaurdianStrifeX: Yea aaaddrfreak: aint he so cute with his guitar XGaurdianStrifeX: Yea he's hott XGaurdianStrifeX: lol XGaurdianStrifeX: j/k aaaddrfreak: ewwwww XGaurdianStrifeX: Lmao aaaddrfreak: lol but um yea i hate my pic thingy aaaddrfreak: i dont like it aaaddrfreak: did u miss me aaaddrfreak: i had to pee XGaurdianStrifeX: Duh aaaddrfreak: i had to pee aaaddrfreak: im srry XGaurdianStrifeX: lol XGaurdianStrifeX: Its ok aaaddrfreak: i gues i should've toook u with me aaaddrfreak: lol XGaurdianStrifeX: Damn straight aaaddrfreak: lol aaaddrfreak: hahahaha aaaddrfreak: im so bored and nobosy wants to talk to me aaaddrfreak: body* aaaddrfreak: the only call i got was sam XGaurdianStrifeX: If we were to break up, would we still be friends XGaurdianStrifeX: Just wondering aaaddrfreak: no im scared XGaurdianStrifeX: ?? aaaddrfreak: yea we would XGaurdianStrifeX: Ok aaaddrfreak: y? XGaurdianStrifeX: Just wondering aaaddrfreak: y though aaaddrfreak: kajshkaJSDH,AmsdoaSDK,AMSBLAHblahqwlkdja.s,mdnasl XGaurdianStrifeX: WTF? aaaddrfreak: nuthing aaaddrfreak: im dumb aaaddrfreak: but y did u want to no aaaddrfreak: i new u didnt like me aaaddrfreak: XGaurdianStrifeX: Omg XGaurdianStrifeX: I wouldn' XGaurdianStrifeX: t be with you right now XGaurdianStrifeX: If I didn't like you aaaddrfreak: BLAH BALH aaaddrfreak: LKSjd,jSHMNBKFJGWHS KAKEFS aaaddrfreak: IM BORED XGaurdianStrifeX: Me too aaaddrfreak: SUMBODY NEEDS TO CALL ME aaaddrfreak: IM SO BORED KDFJGR,KSDGU] aaaddrfreak: FDSDSDHSDKJSKDJFHS,MNMNXCBMXZCHVMSDNBVJSADFJWHDKFASDK aaaddrfreak: OK OK I GET IT aaaddrfreak: IM SRRY aaaddrfreak: ::BAD CAYLA:: XGaurdianStrifeX: I would tell you to call me but I have a huge project that I just started XGaurdianStrifeX: lol, i'm going to be bup til like 2 aaaddrfreak: ME 2 I HAVENT STUDY OR FINISHED MY HW YET aaaddrfreak: ::BAD CAYLA:: XGaurdianStrifeX: ::Loves Cayla:: aaaddrfreak: ::KISSES JORGE:: XGaurdianStrifeX: ::Kisses back:: aaaddrfreak: ::MOVES DOWN::=-O XGaurdianStrifeX: ::Waits:: aaaddrfreak: ::GOES DOWN ALL THE WAY TO PANTS:: XGaurdianStrifeX: ::Starts gettign horny:: aaaddrfreak: :: UNZIPS: XGaurdianStrifeX: ::Looks at her and smiles:: aaaddrfreak: :: TAKES OFF PANTS:: XGaurdianStrifeX: ::His boner pokes out of his Boxer hole:: aaaddrfreak: :: GRABS DICKK:: XGaurdianStrifeX: ::gets harder:: aaaddrfreak: :: GIVES JORGE HEAD:: XGaurdianStrifeX: :;Begins to moan:: aaaddrfreak: :: KISSES HIS CHEST:; XGaurdianStrifeX: ::Kisses her, using some tongue, grabbing her ass and spreading ehr cheeks:> aaaddrfreak: ::KISSES HIS NECJ WHILE GRABBING HIS DICK:: XGaurdianStrifeX: ::He takes off all her cloths and grabs her ass some more:: aaaddrfreak: ::takes off his shirt and rubbs cum all ova his chest:: XGaurdianStrifeX: ::He moans a bit and fingers her ass, kissing her:: aaaddrfreak: :: gives him all he wants:; aaaddrfreak: uh jorge uh uh uh XGaurdianStrifeX: Lmao aaaddrfreak: hahaha aaaddrfreak: lol aaaddrfreak: ::horny:: aaaddrfreak: ::jumping ^ and down:: XGaurdianStrifeX: Why don't you masturbate and cum all over your bed aaaddrfreak: no im good aaaddrfreak: lol aaaddrfreak: i might have a black light test aaaddrfreak: lol XGaurdianStrifeX: Lol, that would suck aaaddrfreak: i no aaaddrfreak: ill be like woops XGaurdianStrifeX: If we broke up and then I wanted you again would you take me back? aaaddrfreak: maybe not XGaurdianStrifeX: Ok aaaddrfreak: i duno aaaddrfreak: depeneds aaaddrfreak: y? XGaurdianStrifeX: Just wondering aaaddrfreak: yyyyyyyy? aaaddrfreak: ::not horny n e more:: XGaurdianStrifeX: I'm just wondering hunnie aaaddrfreak: r u sure aaaddrfreak: ? aaaddrfreak: ::saw a pic of jor........hot guy:: aaaddrfreak: ::horny again:: XGaurdianStrifeX: Actually I don't wanna lie to you hunnie, we need to talk, but I don't want anything bad to happen aaaddrfreak: what aaaddrfreak: ? XGaurdianStrifeX: Its about us aaaddrfreak: what aaaddrfreak: ? aaaddrfreak: ? XGaurdianStrifeX: Well, I like you I really do, No, I love you...but we live so far from each other, and we can't do anything, and I just need like someone I can hold and you know..kiss and stuff, I haven't cheated on you and I don't plan on it, but I was wondering if we could just be good friends, and if your not willing to take me back sometime in the future than I wouldn't blame you, But I love you and all but you know..and I don't wanna cheat on you...we can talk on the phone still too...please don't hate me or cry pleaaaaasssseeee...:-\ aaaddrfreak: AHAHAHAHAHAH aaaddrfreak: ::GEE THIS IS WHAT I NEED RIGHT NOW:: aaaddrfreak: :: GOOD JOB CAYLA I NEW U WERE A BAD GF:: XGaurdianStrifeX: NUUUUUUUU XGaurdianStrifeX: Never aaaddrfreak: ::STUPID BITCH ASS CAYLA:: XGaurdianStrifeX: Its not you, its just me, something that I need right now aaaddrfreak: :: THERE GOES UR PLANS FOR MOVING:: XGaurdianStrifeX: O_O aaaddrfreak: :: GOOD BYE MOVIN:: XGaurdianStrifeX: Cayla!! aaaddrfreak: WHAT XGaurdianStrifeX: I don't want you to hate me aaaddrfreak: ::guess ur not going to move n e more:: aaaddrfreak: :: so much for seeing ur family in ........:: XGaurdianStrifeX: Cayla I'm sorry, But I love you and always will and you know that aaaddrfreak: :: heart broken:: XGaurdianStrifeX: Cayla please don aaaddrfreak: did u no that ......................... nvm XGaurdianStrifeX: t hate me XGaurdianStrifeX: No tell me aaaddrfreak: no aaaddrfreak: nvm aaaddrfreak: it doesnt matter XGaurdianStrifeX: It does Cayla, please don't act like your just a nobody to me aaaddrfreak: ::just a page in ur little scrap book:; XGaurdianStrifeX: ??? aaaddrfreak: i was going ot mo................. nvm XGaurdianStrifeX: Were you really? aaaddrfreak: nvm aaaddrfreak: nvm aaaddrfreak: nvm XGaurdianStrifeX: Cayla, look, I love you, really!! But please don't hate me, we can be friends aaaddrfreak: blah blah XGaurdianStrifeX: Blarg aaaddrfreak: ::sniff sniff:: XGaurdianStrifeX: Stop crying hunnie aaaddrfreak: no!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! XGaurdianStrifeX: Why aaaddrfreak: cuz im sad XGaurdianStrifeX: I know your sad..me sad toooo!! aaaddrfreak: yyyyy> aaaddrfreak: ? aaaddrfreak: ? aaaddrfreak: ? aaaddrfreak: ? XGaurdianStrifeX: Cuz your sad aaaddrfreak: kk aaaddrfreak: ? XGaurdianStrifeX: Cayla, I know you hate me right now but I don't blame you... aaaddrfreak: kk? XGaurdianStrifeX: What? aaaddrfreak: nvm aaaddrfreak: ::crying:; XGaurdianStrifeX: Why!!! aaaddrfreak: nvm aaaddrfreak: ill just tell mii dad that we aint movin n e mo XGaurdianStrifeX: Cayla, you can still move, I'll still be here, its not like i'm dying aaaddrfreak: nvm aaaddrfreak: ii dont no n e more aaaddrfreak: i was like all happy n shyt since.......................... but i dont no XGaurdianStrifeX: Ugh, Cayla, I'm sorry aaaddrfreak: nvm XGaurdianStrifeX: No, stop saying nvm aaaddrfreak: y aaaddrfreak: nobody cares XGaurdianStrifeX: Cayla, you know I care XGaurdianStrifeX: Why do you say that aaaddrfreak: cuz u dont XGaurdianStrifeX: Why do you say that? aaaddrfreak: cuz u dont XGaurdianStrifeX: How do you know that? aaaddrfreak: cuz im u-g -l-y aaaddrfreak: only u-g-l-y no things like that XGaurdianStrifeX: No your not ugly aaaddrfreak: yep XGaurdianStrifeX: No aaaddrfreak: yes XGaurdianStrifeX: Nope sorry aaaddrfreak: yes XGaurdianStrifeX: Ok stop Cayla aaaddrfreak: y XGaurdianStrifeX: Because you know your not, and I'm telling you your not, and you have to stop acting like this, I love you and I will always care for you, no matter what, I'll be here for you aaaddrfreak: :: ur so fuking dumb:: aaaddrfreak: ::love is pain:: XGaurdianStrifeX: There is no easy way of going through this... aaaddrfreak: what? XGaurdianStrifeX: You can't break up with someone and make it easy aaaddrfreak: w/e aaaddrfreak: :: i already had a bad day at skool:: aaaddrfreak: :: and now i lose the 1 i thought i loved:: XGaurdianStrifeX: Why the fuck, I can admit that I love you no matter what and you have to just stop loving me like that..than you really didn't love me like you said you did aaaddrfreak: u dont get it aaaddrfreak: i say everything in my journal's aaaddrfreak: EVERYTHING XGaurdianStrifeX: If I don't get it than why don' XGaurdianStrifeX: t you try to explain aaaddrfreak: cuz im busy XGaurdianStrifeX: Why do you have to act like that, can't we just be friends, I know its much harder than it sounds but can't you try... aaaddrfreak: i duno aaaddrfreak: http://www.xanga.com/Private/home.aspx?user=aaaddrfreak02 aaaddrfreak: login is as aaaddrfreak: aaaddrfreak02 aaaddrfreak: and the ppw: larieno02 aaaddrfreak: larien02* aaaddrfreak: the love of my life is my only strenght in this life that god has giving me. if i lose him. i lose all and i shall fall in the depths of deaths arms aaaddrfreak: god i love jorge. i wish he new how i feel about him. he means the world and so much more to me and it kills me to think that people waist their time saying tht im cheating on him when i love him more than n e thing. aaaddrfreak: thats jorge!!! isnt he so bangin hot!!! lol!! well thats the guy i love. he is 16 almost 17 on may 17 and he is mine and all mine. but it seems like he doesbt like me n e more. i would kill myself than hurt him. he is the best thing i have ever had. and he is costa rican and no he doesnt drive. whata shame i no but that doesnt matter cuz i will always b there for him and lovve him forever. even if we rnt togather n e more. aaaddrfreak: jorge: i love u so fuking much and ur the best. ill never let u go. ur the best bf a gf could ever have and i love u for that and so much more. i would walk 1000 miles just to see u for 5 minutes. u mean the world to me and i love u always and forever. plz dont be mad at all these people. they are just mad cuz u got a bangin gurl( im lying) but ur the best thing i ever had and i dont want to lose u over a stupid thing that people say. they have no proof to baq it up. so they are lying. they all lying. aaaddrfreak: i love u jorge. ur the best XGaurdianStrifeX: Cayla, I know you feel like that, but I love you too Cayla, why can't you believe me...This doesn't change how I feel for you aaaddrfreak: i dont get it XGaurdianStrifeX: What don't you get aaaddrfreak: nvm aaaddrfreak: doesnt matter XGaurdianStrifeX: Its does, so talk aaaddrfreak: to tell u the truth i told my dad that i couldnt take it n e more down her and that i dont belong here and i should be with family that loves me and wants to b with me aaaddrfreak: and he said the only family we have in in n.j and i said exactly aaaddrfreak: can we go there aaaddrfreak: ill do much better there and i think i belong there aaaddrfreak: and he said ok ok we will go when summer starts and i hope u'll like it aaaddrfreak: he even called my family members in n.j today and they were like hellz yea aaaddrfreak: my cuzin's friends like me aaaddrfreak: see there u go aaaddrfreak: i said it XGaurdianStrifeX: Cayla, I'm not gone, I'm right here XGaurdianStrifeX: Move here, I'll go see you aaaddrfreak: why aaaddrfreak: there is no point now aaaddrfreak: i was like almost packed to aaaddrfreak: now i have to unpack XGaurdianStrifeX: Cayla just cuz were not fucking going out it doesn't mean you have to fucking hate me' aaaddrfreak: dont curse at me aaaddrfreak: i never said i hate u aaaddrfreak: its just that i love u XGaurdianStrifeX: I love you too, so now that were just friends i'm not worth you coming up here XGaurdianStrifeX: ?? XGaurdianStrifeX: Is that what your tryint to say aaaddrfreak: no!!! aaaddrfreak: u dont get it aaaddrfreak: if i see u ill like cry my eyes out cuz its all my fault XGaurdianStrifeX: Its not you fault XGaurdianStrifeX: How can it be your fault aaaddrfreak: cuz all these people "my friends" told u shyt XGaurdianStrifeX: Its not cuz of that hunnie aaaddrfreak: and i wouldnt have happened if u did get with me XGaurdianStrifeX: Hunnie, thats not true, you made me happy, and I thank you for that aaaddrfreak: XxBaLlInBaBy561: HE USED YOU aaaddrfreak: for? aaaddrfreak: my ass XxBaLlInBaBy561: yep aaaddrfreak: u see that XGaurdianStrifeX: Yea, who are they talking about? aaaddrfreak: u XGaurdianStrifeX: How the fuck did I use you for ass if I didn't even get any!!!??? XGaurdianStrifeX: That makes no sense aaaddrfreak: y the fuk are u yelling ta me aaaddrfreak: god dam XGaurdianStrifeX: I'm not yelleing at you aaaddrfreak: i now im ugly , stupid, a hor, bitch, retarded, a bad gf and shyt but u dont have to yell at me for it XGaurdianStrifeX: Cayla stop XGaurdianStrifeX: You know your not fucking any of those aaaddrfreak: :: he is just saying that:: XGaurdianStrifeX: ::Is not:: aaaddrfreak: :: i hate love:: aaaddrfreak: :: i dont no what do to god, help me:: XGaurdianStrifeX: Cayla why are you trying to make me feel like shit aaaddrfreak: wtf aaaddrfreak: jorge nvm aaaddrfreak: it doesnt matter XGaurdianStrifeX: No, not nvm XGaurdianStrifeX: And it does matter XGaurdianStrifeX: So talk aaaddrfreak: ill just sit in a corner and die XGaurdianStrifeX: No Cayla, see wtf, just cuz I fucking broke up with you does not mean that you have to fucking be hurt, i'm just another stupid ass guy like everyone else, Don't be hurt cuz of me, I'm just a fucking guy, and I'm deffinately not worth you fucking crying... aaaddrfreak: dont curse at me aaaddrfreak: and u no what u r wroth it aaaddrfreak: ok aaaddrfreak: if i did for manny than u sure ass hell worth my life aaaddrfreak: as* XGaurdianStrifeX: ... XGaurdianStrifeX: ::Is never gonna talk to anyone ever again, and is never gonna tell a girl he loves her because I always end up being the bad guy:: aaaddrfreak: :: don tsay that u love sum1 unless u truely mean it:: XGaurdianStrifeX: ::He did mean it, but for some reason breaking up with someone automatically makes that impossible:: aaaddrfreak: :: not for sum1 who truely loves u baq:: aaaddrfreak: :: that hurts my heart jorge if u love sum 1 why hurt them:: XGaurdianStrifeX: ::Because sometimes you try your hardest not to, but unfortunately you have to:: XGaurdianStrifeX: ::Cayla, trust me, even if your not together, people can love each other, truthfully XGaurdianStrifeX: :: aaaddrfreak: :: not true aaaddrfreak: :: XGaurdianStrifeX: ::Yes true, Cayla, because you think i'm just gonna forget you, and act like you were a nothing in my life, No, You will always have a place in my heart, and I will always be there for you, that's how its ture Cayla, that's how people can still caer for each other even if their not together aaaddrfreak: :: i still dont get it:: aaaddrfreak: :: if u still love me than y did u break ^ with me:: XGaurdianStrifeX: Because you live all the way there, and I live here, and Love can only go so far aaaddrfreak: well i guess i wasnt enough for u XGaurdianStrifeX: Cayla, you were everything you could be, and you gave me all you had, and that's why I will always love you, and I will be forever greatful that I could have a girl like you aaaddrfreak: well did u think tht i was going to go baq out with u XGaurdianStrifeX: No, I didn't expect you too XGaurdianStrifeX: I don't ever expect you too aaaddrfreak: u no what i would aaaddrfreak: but im hurt aaaddrfreak: really hurt XGaurdianStrifeX: I know you are Cayla, and I'm sorry... XGaurdianStrifeX: What do you want me to do so that you believe me... aaaddrfreak: i duno aaaddrfreak: it seems like u dont care XGaurdianStrifeX: I do, Cayla, please believe me, I aaaddrfreak: :: cryinf:: XGaurdianStrifeX: 'm not just gonna forget you aaaddrfreak: cryibg?* aaaddrfreak: crying* XGaurdianStrifeX: ::Wipes her tears:: aaaddrfreak: :: runs away crying:: aaaddrfreak: :: sits in the middle of the road:; XGaurdianStrifeX: ::Doesn't know what Cayla wants from him, so he is gonna kill himself tommorow:: aaaddrfreak: :: she loves him:: XGaurdianStrifeX: ::He loves her forever and ever:: aaaddrfreak: :: doesnt no what to do:: aaaddrfreak: :: goes in house to over douse:: XGaurdianStrifeX: ::Doesn't know what Cayla wants him to do:: aaaddrfreak: :: cayla wan............................ :: aaaddrfreak: :: doesnt matter:: XGaurdianStrifeX: :;Does matter:; aaaddrfreak: :: love is pain and pain = death XGaurdianStrifeX: :;wants cayla to continue saying what she was saying:: aaaddrfreak: :: no:: XGaurdianStrifeX: Please Cayla aaaddrfreak: y should i aaaddrfreak: it isnt going to happen XGaurdianStrifeX: Just say it aaaddrfreak: im going to O.D XGaurdianStrifeX: No Cayla XGaurdianStrifeX: Don't XGaurdianStrifeX: Can you call me right now aaaddrfreak: yea aaaddrfreak: why XGaurdianStrifeX: I need to talk to you aaaddrfreak: Y Current Mood: AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, March 13th, 2005
7:16 pm	u no what nvm. im not going to let him get in the fuking way of my life. i need space and i should be happy with a loving person that i would walk around tht world and baq for just to tell him i love him. not some man hor who thinks that going out with my best friend will change n e thing. i need to get him out of my mind and way from my heart. he is only poluting it. i cant believe i ever fell in love with a player. my brother is right once a player always a player. he'll never change. get him out of my life and way from my heart. i dont need him. all i need is love and jorge is the 1 who gives it to me. i cant stand being unhappy all the fuking time. the only one that i can talk to now is jenni and kelly. they are the only one that can trust when it comes to friends. our first loved 1's: for every action there is a consiquence. dont forget the ones u love for one day u might lose them. u might think that u love tham at first but make sure thaat ull never let them go. when in doubt ur loved ones miight be the only one to catch u when u fall. dont lean one the ones who u think will help u. know all when it comes to relying on others. esspeccially when it comes to the ones u fall in love with. treat them like crap and and they might stay but eventually you'll lose them. dont expect them to come baq cuz they wont. the gates of hell are the same way. u could be sent to the gates of hellbut u have a choice. or u can stay where u are for the remaining of ur life. but u will never be able to turn baq. trust in other but also trust in urself. be urself. keep moving through all the bad.forget about that past and worry about the future. we're all the same. we think for the worst ad dream for the better. our relantionship: im srry that i ever felt that i was sunthing more to u than just a page in ur scrap book. im sorry that i was there to catch u when u fell.and held ur hand and guide u through all the sickness and pain. i opened my heart 2 u and u filled it with pain. i want nuthing more than to give u the world but or relationship is failing. we can no longer b. im srry. i will love u always and forever becuz ur my one and only loved one. i hate fuking life why does it always have to be so fuking hard. i cant believe what is happening. im such a bad friend. everybody hates me and its making me go bawq to cutting myself. its all just so fuking hard to live. i dont want to live n e more if this is my life. unless a merical happens. ima cut till i beeld to death and lie awake on the floor. i love u jorge and............. cayla with a "c" Current Mood: u people just dont get it (Comment on this)
7:08 pm	U NO GUYS I WAS KINDA THINKING BOUT GOING BAQ OUT WITH MANNY. I MEAN HE SEEMS THAT HE HAS CHANGED. UNTIL TODAY WHEN I FOUND OUT THAT HE IS GOING OUT WITH BETSY AND HE DOESNT EVEN FUKING NO WHAT THE HELL SHE LOOKS LIKE. HE IS SUCH A FUKING LOSER. I FEEL SICK NOW. IM SRRY I EVER FELT THAT I WAS SUMTHING MORE THAN A PAGE IN HIS SCRAPBOOK. GOD I THINK THAT ME AND HIM JUST SHOULDNT BE. ILL GIVE HIM THAT CHANCE TILL WEDNESDAY TO PROVE HIMSELF. ATFER THAT................................. IT HURTS ME TO SAY IT BUT IT WILL BE OVER. I CAN STAND HIS FUKING CRAP. WITH HIS MOOD CHANGES. ITS MAKING ME SICK. I JUST CAN LIKE LIKE THIS. WONDERING ABOUT EVERYTHING. MAYBE THIS IS ALL JUST A DREAM. I NEED TO WAKE ^ \. PLZ HELP ME WAKE ^. aaaddrfreak: are u sure that ur ok JaCkPoT 5k: No JaCkPoT 5k: Can I ask a q ? aaaddrfreak: what aaaddrfreak: ? JaCkPoT 5k: Why does it matter how I feel about you now ? aaaddrfreak: cuz it does manny aaaddrfreak: so i no aaaddrfreak: thats why JaCkPoT 5k: But...Why though ? JaCkPoT 5k: Why do you have to know ? aaaddrfreak: cuz i do aaaddrfreak: ok aaaddrfreak: ? aaaddrfreak: i have my reasons JaCkPoT 5k: May I know those reasons ? aaaddrfreak: no JaCkPoT 5k: :-( Pweeeeeeeez aaaddrfreak: nope JaCkPoT 5k: .. aaaddrfreak: .......... JaCkPoT 5k: May I know Betsy's # please...I really need to talk to her aaaddrfreak: why aaaddrfreak: ? JaCkPoT 5k: I need to talk to her aaaddrfreak: about what aaaddrfreak: ? JaCkPoT 5k: It's really important please aaaddrfreak: what about gosh aaaddrfreak: ? JaCkPoT 5k: I really can't say aaaddrfreak: tell me or no JaCkPoT 5k: Cayla please aaaddrfreak: nope aaaddrfreak: tell me JaCkPoT 5k: I can't aaaddrfreak: it depends on the reason aaaddrfreak: than nope aaaddrfreak: i cant tell u aaaddrfreak: its not my aaaddrfreak: # aaaddrfreak: to give aaaddrfreak: but if u tel me than maybe JaCkPoT 5k: I can't aaaddrfreak: than no aaaddrfreak: im not going to do that JaCkPoT 5k: DO what ? aaaddrfreak: give u her # aaaddrfreak: u dont need it JaCkPoT 5k: I need to know her # she suppose to give to me while I was talkin to her JaCkPoT 5k: But I forgot to ask before I hung up aaaddrfreak: oh well aaaddrfreak: sux for u JaCkPoT 5k: Why are you being like that ? aaaddrfreak: bcuz aaaddrfreak: i can JaCkPoT 5k: That's so wrong though aaaddrfreak: oh well JaCkPoT 5k: If I need to talk to her for a personal reason aaaddrfreak: oh well aaaddrfreak: u dont need her# JaCkPoT 5k: I have to talk to her...It's personal JaCkPoT 5k: Yes I do aaaddrfreak: who cares aaaddrfreak: not me JaCkPoT 5k signed off at 6:51:13 PM. JaCkPoT 5k signed on at 6:54:17 PM. aaaddrfreak: i no why u little bastard JaCkPoT 5k: Know what ? aaaddrfreak: ur going out with her aaaddrfreak: dont lie JaCkPoT 5k: Where the fuck did you get that from ? aaaddrfreak: im mad at u aaaddrfreak: the least u can do was tell me JaCkPoT 5k: No aaaddrfreak: god i trusted u aaaddrfreak: whatevber JaCkPoT 5k: And yes I do go out with Betsy aaaddrfreak: wtf is wrong with u aaaddrfreak: u fuking bastard aaaddrfreak: how could u JaCkPoT 5k: fuck u JaCkPoT 5k: How could I what JaCkPoT 5k: That person that was online yesterday JaCkPoT 5k: Yes JaCkPoT 5k: that wasnt me JaCkPoT 5k: That was the kid who kept askin u out JaCkPoT 5k: That was at my house aaaddrfreak: ur a loser manny aaaddrfreak: u dont even no what the hell she looks like JaCkPoT 5k: yea but i hurd some nice comments about her aaaddrfreak: ur fuking gay aaaddrfreak: dont talk to me aaaddrfreak: i was nie to u JaCkPoT 5k: i wont aaaddrfreak: and u cant even do the same for me JaCkPoT 5k: yea JaCkPoT 5k: and now ur not JaCkPoT 5k: What's the big DEAL JaCkPoT 5k: of me going out with her aaaddrfreak: u make me sick JaCkPoT 5k: not like im goin out with you JaCkPoT 5k: w/e JaCkPoT 5k: go to the fuckin doctor aaaddrfreak: dont tell me wat to fuking do aaaddrfreak: god dam u man hor JaCkPoT 5k: I'm no man hor aaaddrfreak: yes u are JaCkPoT 5k: Your just a plain hor aaaddrfreak: i hope u like kissing a mouth the gave 10 guys head aaaddrfreak: have fun aaaddrfreak: oh and even ask scott aaaddrfreak: he'll tell u JaCkPoT 5k: Oh like you never gave head aaaddrfreak: no that much in one fuking nite JaCkPoT 5k: Oh yea I'm sure she'd love hear you lying on her and talkin shit bout her JaCkPoT 5k: That's why you got into that fight in the first place JaCkPoT 5k: TALKIN SHIT aaaddrfreak: ill even show u aaaddrfreak: u make me sick aaaddrfreak: u love me my fuking ass aaaddrfreak: cant believe i cared JaCkPoT 5k: You know what JaCkPoT 5k: I just told you JaCkPoT 5k: That was Mike! JaCkPoT 5k: Not fuckin me yesterday JaCkPoT 5k: Yea I love you JaCkPoT 5k: But you don't have to be such an ass about givin me someones # aaaddrfreak: yes i do aaaddrfreak: u fuking loser aaaddrfreak: it isnt my # JaCkPoT 5k: Well doesn't matter aaaddrfreak: it does 2 me JaCkPoT 5k: ok Current Mood: HOW can i live in this world (Comment on this)
Thursday, March 10th, 2005
6:15 pm	HEY HEY HEY PEOPLES I GOTY JUMPED TODAY FOR NO FUKING REASON. BY A GUY AND A GIRL. THEY ARE GOING TO GET FUKED UP BY MARTINE AND DARA AND ALEX AND SHIT. I CANT6 WAIT TO FUK THEM UP 2MARROW............ GOD WHATA FUKING BITCH CAYLA WITH A "C" Current Mood: fuk her up hoe (Comment on this)
Monday, March 7th, 2005
10:57 pm	http://www.geocities.com/babie6url209/ omfg im crying. i hope that deosnt happen to me and jorge. i love u so much babe. i dont ever want to lose u!!!! Current Mood: thats so damn sad (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 2nd, 2005
2:34 pm	pics of me for me ahahahahahaha u people need to help me find a pic of me. cuz i need to show jorge. he is like begging for one. i really really need u guys to help me out with a pic. but yea u need to help me ahahahahahahahahahaha i really really really need a pic of me. can u guys help me out. Current Mood: i need a pic of me (2 Comments |Comment on this)
11:20 am	CaYlAnDsAmBFF: did u call me JaCkPoT 5k: ..yea CaYlAnDsAmBFF: ok CaYlAnDsAmBFF: what do u need CaYlAnDsAmBFF: ? CaYlAnDsAmBFF: i was in the shower JaCkPoT 5k: Just wanted to tell you something... CaYlAnDsAmBFF: srry JaCkPoT 5k: That's all CaYlAnDsAmBFF: what is it CaYlAnDsAmBFF: and whats up with ur pro CaYlAnDsAmBFF: what did u need to tell me CaYlAnDsAmBFF: ? JaCkPoT 5k: Nothin... JaCkPoT 5k: I'll just whipe out my whole prof..h/o CaYlAnDsAmBFF: no tell me.......... CaYlAnDsAmBFF: kk JaCkPoT 5k: Ok.. CaYlAnDsAmBFF: ok JaCkPoT 5k: So.. CaYlAnDsAmBFF: so? JaCkPoT 5k: ... CaYlAnDsAmBFF: ............................ JaCkPoT 5k: What's up ? CaYlAnDsAmBFF: look up JaCkPoT 5k: heh JaCkPoT 5k: ... CaYlAnDsAmBFF: lol CaYlAnDsAmBFF: im doing u a favor CaYlAnDsAmBFF: dont tell jorge that im talking to u ok CaYlAnDsAmBFF: he doesnt want me to JaCkPoT 5k: I know... JaCkPoT 5k: Can yuou talk on the fone ? CaYlAnDsAmBFF: y JaCkPoT 5k: Cause I...Just need someone to talk to CaYlAnDsAmBFF: ok im here for u CaYlAnDsAmBFF: let me get my house fone JaCkPoT 5k: ok JaCkPoT 5k: You ever heard the song "SideWalks" by Story of The Year ? CaYlAnDsAmBFF: yea CaYlAnDsAmBFF: i have their cd JaCkPoT 5k: That song is fuckin sad JaCkPoT 5k: Can I call ? CaYlAnDsAmBFF: yeppers CaYlAnDsAmBFF: manny if ur crying u need to stop JaCkPoT 5k: ...Why do you think I'm crying ? CaYlAnDsAmBFF: i duno CaYlAnDsAmBFF: cuz maAYBE JUST MAYBE U R JaCkPoT 5k: I am......But It's ok CaYlAnDsAmBFF: NO DONT B LIKE THAT JaCkPoT 5k: Be like ? CaYlAnDsAmBFF: PLZ STOP JaCkPoT 5k: Ok.. CaYlAnDsAmBFF: THX JaCkPoT 5k: You know that I regret everything...I've done right ? CaYlAnDsAmBFF: I GUESS JaCkPoT 5k: I'm really...Sorry CaYlAnDsAmBFF: R U SURE CaYlAnDsAmBFF: ? CaYlAnDsAmBFF: ? CaYlAnDsAmBFF: ? CaYlAnDsAmBFF: ? CaYlAnDsAmBFF: ? CaYlAnDsAmBFF: ? JaCkPoT 5k: Yea... JaCkPoT 5k: I wish I was dead... JaCkPoT 5k: You don't know how I feel... CaYlAnDsAmBFF: I GUESS I DONT JaCkPoT 5k: I've never felt this shitty in my life CaYlAnDsAmBFF: UR JUST SAYING THAT MANNY JaCkPoT 5k: No I'm not CaYlAnDsAmBFF: I NO U LIKE SUM ONE ELSE JaCkPoT 5k: You JaCkPoT 5k: Fuck Kristy or anyone else JaCkPoT 5k: If I had to pick between you and any supermodel or anybody or blah blah blah.....YOU CaYlAnDsAmBFF: UM OK? JaCkPoT 5k: look i really fucked up JaCkPoT 5k: and I'm sorry JaCkPoT 5k: Your friend helped JaCkPoT 5k: me JaCkPoT 5k: Sammee ? JaCkPoT 5k: She really showed me I fucked up JaCkPoT 5k: She IMed me JaCkPoT 5k: Don't be mad at her JaCkPoT 5k: She really made me realize I fucked up bad CaYlAnDsAmBFF: SHE IS PISSED AT U JaCkPoT 5k: I know CaYlAnDsAmBFF: AND SHE SAID THAT IF I GO OUR WITH U THAN SHE WILL KICK MY ASS CaYlAnDsAmBFF: SAME WITH MY BROTHER JaCkPoT 5k: .... JaCkPoT 5k: Shit! JaCkPoT 5k: So I'm basically stuff JaCkPoT 5k: stuck* JaCkPoT 5k: h/o CaYlAnDsAmBFF: K CaYlAnDsAmBFF: Everytime i fall in love I fall for someone new Still i always find myself Falling back in love with you... And dont you kiss me like this Unless you mean it like that Because ill just close my eyes And i wont know where im at... I wanna tell you how im feeling But i dont know where to start I wanna tell you that i love you But im afraid you'll break my heart... if u love me say it if u trust me do it if u want me show it if u need me prove it Never regret something that once made you smile CaYlAnDsAmBFF: THATS FROM MY FRIEND JaCkPoT 5k: Cayla JaCkPoT 5k: I love you JaCkPoT 5k: I seriously do JaCkPoT 5k: If you gave me another chance JaCkPoT 5k: I would show you JaCkPoT 5k: But I know you don't want to risk it CaYlAnDsAmBFF: MANNY JaCkPoT 5k: ? CaYlAnDsAmBFF: IF U DO LOVE ME ULL LET ME THINK JaCkPoT 5k: I will...But I'm just so afraid Cayla JaCkPoT 5k: Man dude I'm fucked JaCkPoT 5k: ..Wrong IM CaYlAnDsAmBFF: ok? JaCkPoT 5k: Do you understand though ? JaCkPoT 5k: I'm afraid Cayla JaCkPoT 5k: I'm like never afraid of things CaYlAnDsAmBFF: what r u afraid of JaCkPoT 5k: You saying "No" CaYlAnDsAmBFF: no to what CaYlAnDsAmBFF: ? JaCkPoT 5k: Me and you going again CaYlAnDsAmBFF: im so fuking lost CaYlAnDsAmBFF: put urself in jorge's position CaYlAnDsAmBFF: wouldnt u feel like shit if i just went out with u and said u no what by i love mannyy again CaYlAnDsAmBFF: im srry CaYlAnDsAmBFF: i mean think manny CaYlAnDsAmBFF: i have to do alot of that JaCkPoT 5k: But if you do, do this JaCkPoT 5k: Why ? JaCkPoT 5k: Your brother would kick your fuckin A JaCkPoT 5k: I don't want that to happen to you CaYlAnDsAmBFF: if thats what u want CaYlAnDsAmBFF: i cant even talk to u JaCkPoT 5k: Cayla you know what I want CaYlAnDsAmBFF: if my brother finds out CaYlAnDsAmBFF: its my ass JaCkPoT 5k wants to directly connect. JaCkPoT 5k is now directly connected. JaCkPoT 5k: Sorry for doing this but JaCkPoT 5k: JaCkPoT 5k: Will you really just throw us away ? CaYlAnDsAmBFF: manny stop CaYlAnDsAmBFF: dont b like that CaYlAnDsAmBFF: ::crying:: JaCkPoT 5k: Don't say your crying Cayla JaCkPoT 5k: You know I really am JaCkPoT 5k: I have been almost an hour now JaCkPoT 5k is away at 6:57:55 PM. CaYlAnDsAmBFF: kk Auto response from JaCkPoT 5k: My life is fucked up...I never do shit right...and when I want to do something to amuse me it backfires.....Life sucks...I wish I didn't live to be here with the people that annoy me the most..... JaCkPoT 5k returned at 6:58:04 PM. JaCkPoT 5k is away at 6:58:12 PM. JaCkPoT 5k direct connection is closed. CaYlAnDsAmBFF: kk CaYlAnDsAmBFF: ? CaYlAnDsAmBFF wants to directly connect. CaYlAnDsAmBFF cancels request; no connection was made. (Note: For best results, you and your buddy should use the latest version of AIM.). JaCkPoT 5k returned at 7:11:22 PM. JaCkPoT 5k: ? JaCkPoT 5k: what happened CaYlAnDsAmBFF wants to directly connect. JaCkPoT 5k is now directly connected. CaYlAnDsAmBFF: JaCkPoT 5k: who was on the fone Auto response from aaaddrfreak: close my eyes let the whole thing pass me, there is no time to waist asking why, ill run away with u by my side,ill run away with u by my side, i need u echo echo echo in my mind , until this echo echo echo echo in my mind, until this echo echo echo echo can subside aaaddrfreak: i cant tell aaaddrfreak: i cant do that to them JaCkPoT 5k: then dont aaaddrfreak: ok aaaddrfreak: y r u bing mean 2 mean aaaddrfreak: a time out doesnt mean that u have to treat the other person like shit JaCkPoT 5k: cuz im not in the mood ne more\ aaaddrfreak: what do u mena aaaddrfreak: mean* JaCkPoT 5k: duno i jus dun feel like being nice 2 ne one aaaddrfreak: y aaaddrfreak: this was all ur desicion JaCkPoT 5k: i kno JaCkPoT 5k: itz not that but im readin ur lj so hold on aaaddrfreak: kk JaCkPoT 5k: HOW CAN A 17 YR OLD LIKE A 14 YR OLD. I MEAN C'MON NOW. SHE MUST B PRETTY UGLY IF SHE CANT FIND A GUY HER OWN AGE OR CLOSE TO IT. EITHER SHE IS A HOE LOOKING FOR SEX OR SHE IS JUST DOING THIS TO MAKE HIM LIKE HER AND THEN B LIKE EWWWWW GET THE FUK AWAY FROM ME. THATS SAD. IF I WAS GOING OUT WITH SUM 1 THAT YOUNGER THAN ME I WAS B EMBARRSSED CUZ THAT WOULD B WRONG. I MEAN THINK ABOUT IT. ITS JUST NOT RIGHT. JaCkPoT 5k: she likes me cuz JaCkPoT 5k: im cute JaCkPoT 5k: and my personality JaCkPoT 5k: it's not all about age aaaddrfreak: omg aaaddrfreak: shut up JaCkPoT 5k: my sisters bf is 37 JaCkPoT 5k: my sister is 24 JaCkPoT 5k: ok ? JaCkPoT 5k: ok aaaddrfreak: thats different JaCkPoT 5k: its jus an AGE difference aaaddrfreak: ur gay ok JaCkPoT 5k: no im not aaaddrfreak: than why r u being like this to me aaaddrfreak: my god JaCkPoT 5k: cuz i am JaCkPoT 5k: dusn mean im gay aaaddrfreak: y though manny JaCkPoT 5k: cause ur always talkin shit about Kristy aaaddrfreak: so u like her JaCkPoT 5k: What does it matter to you ? aaaddrfreak: it does cuz i love u aaaddrfreak: i mean aaaddrfreak: what if i told u that i was going out with jorge aaaddrfreak: wouldnt u be up set JaCkPoT 5k: no aaaddrfreak: y not JaCkPoT 5k: he lives in N.J. aaaddrfreak: so JaCkPoT 5k: too far away to do ne thing aaaddrfreak: welll still just the thought aaaddrfreak: doesnt it hurt JaCkPoT 5k: no aaaddrfreak: so u dont care botu me n e more aaaddrfreak: cuz o the time out thing JaCkPoT 5k: it doesn't hurt JaCkPoT 5k: cause of the possibility of u guys gettin together to do ne thing aaaddrfreak: but manny think bout it aaaddrfreak: it hurts me when u say that aout kristy JaCkPoT 5k: say what ? aaaddrfreak: like aaaddrfreak: stop saying that about her aaaddrfreak: no shes not aaaddrfreak: things like that ] JaCkPoT 5k: Well don't say it about her JaCkPoT 5k: She's never said anything about yo JaCkPoT 5k: you* aaaddrfreak: i dk aaaddrfreak: think about it aaaddrfreak: she is all over u even though u have a gf aaaddrfreak: thats a hoe aaaddrfreak: and........... JaCkPoT 5k: She doesn't have a bf aaaddrfreak: she "likes" u and ahe is 17 JaCkPoT 5k: So why not try to get with someone aaaddrfreak: um JaCkPoT 5k: That doesn't matter.. aaaddrfreak: not if they have a gf JaCkPoT 5k: Only 3 years older aaaddrfreak: it doesnt matter JaCkPoT 5k: Exactly JaCkPoT 5k: It doesn't matter aaaddrfreak: my god aaaddrfreak: do u still wana go out with me JaCkPoT 5k: Not sure....You seem to have such a problem with a 14 yr old going out with a 17 yr old aaaddrfreak: its wrong JaCkPoT 5k: Not really... aaaddrfreak: even my dad said thats a hoe JaCkPoT 5k: I don't care what anybody says JaCkPoT 5k: You shouldn't care what people say aaaddrfreak: than why do u care so much wen people atlk about us aaaddrfreak: uh uh uh JaCkPoT 5k: I don't JaCkPoT 5k: I don't do much about it do I ? aaaddrfreak: nope JaCkPoT 5k: Exactly...I don't care aaaddrfreak: omg aaaddrfreak: so thats what this whole time out thing is about JaCkPoT 5k: What ? aaaddrfreak: 17 JaCkPoT 5k: Where'd that come from ? aaaddrfreak: nvm aaaddrfreak: so u can do stuff with her aaaddrfreak: thats what people say say say JaCkPoT 5k: If I want to do stuff with her JaCkPoT 5k: Then I just might JaCkPoT 5k: But I have no intentions of that right now aaaddrfreak: ok aaaddrfreak: so how long is this going to last JaCkPoT 5k: I don't know JaCkPoT 5k: You keep talking about Kristy that way... JaCkPoT 5k: I just don't know aaaddrfreak: so wut aaaddrfreak: its not just me ok JaCkPoT 5k: You're the one who started it aaaddrfreak: no im not ok JaCkPoT 5k: All you had to do was keep your mouth shut aaaddrfreak: it was amk and olivia JaCkPoT 5k: YEa whateve aaaddrfreak: i dont have to do n e thing JaCkPoT 5k: r aaaddrfreak: its true aaaddrfreak: they r the ones telling about it JaCkPoT 5k: If you really wanna know I do like her a bit aaaddrfreak: i no that ok aaaddrfreak: manny i do love u but c'mon now JaCkPoT 5k: no aaaddrfreak: yes JaCkPoT 5k: I not coming on at al JaCkPoT 5k: all JaCkPoT 5k: Im not abiding aaaddrfreak: ok ok lets drop it all JaCkPoT 5k: Everything ? JaCkPoT 5k: mow JaCkPoT 5k: No* JaCkPoT 5k: I didn't do all this to just drop it aaaddrfreak: no i mean aaaddrfreak: the fighting thing JaCkPoT 5k: w/e JaCkPoT 5k: I'm jus listinin to a song that boosts me to do anything I was JaCkPoT 5k: want* aaaddrfreak: manny do u still like me aaaddrfreak: ? JaCkPoT 5k: Yea aaaddrfreak: r u sure aaaddrfreak: ? JaCkPoT 5k: no aaaddrfreak: manny thats not funny JaCkPoT 5k: I'm serious aaaddrfreak: ok JaCkPoT 5k: I can't do it JaCkPoT 5k: For now JaCkPoT 5k: I cant hurt you JaCkPoT 5k: I like her JaCkPoT 5k: It's over aaaddrfreak: u no manny r u sure aaaddrfreak: cuz im not going to go baq out with u aaaddrfreak: i had to deal with this 4 to 5 times and i cant take it n e more JaCkPoT 5k: I love you JaCkPoT 5k: but it's over aaaddrfreak: wtf? aaaddrfreak: u cant love sum 1 and break up with them aaaddrfreak: im telling u manny JaCkPoT 5k: yea u can JaCkPoT 5k: I jus did aaaddrfreak: this is ur last chance JaCkPoT 5k: I don't care aaaddrfreak: me neither manny aaaddrfreak: let me ask u this aaaddrfreak: do u ever want to go baq out with me JaCkPoT 5k: Not sure JaCkPoT 5k: But why JaCkPoT 5k: I can't! JaCkPoT 5k: You just said so yourself aaaddrfreak: what did i say aaaddrfreak: ? aaaddrfreak: whatever aaaddrfreak: its over idk aaaddrfreak: im going out with jorge aaaddrfreak: so im over it JaCkPoT 5k: I KNOW IT'S OVER JaCkPoT 5k: I JUST SAID THAT..DUH! aaaddrfreak: kk aaaddrfreak: good aaaddrfreak: go fuk ur hoe JaCkPoT 5k: No prob aaaddrfreak: kk aaaddrfreak: hope u get aids JaCkPoT 5k: Don't worry I won't JaCkPoT 5k: By the way you've been dumped aaaddrfreak: ok manny aaaddrfreak: i still love u and all aaaddrfreak: but manny this is all dumb JaCkPoT 5k: DUMPED aaaddrfreak: omfg aaaddrfreak: whatever manny JaCkPoT 5k: I'll always be Jorge's friend....Me and him are Bro's for life aaaddrfreak: um just to tell u she is going out with sum 1 and she is getting paid to go out with u aaaddrfreak: have fun!!!!! JaCkPoT 5k: I'm not going out with anyone JaCkPoT 5k: You damn pathalogical liar aaaddrfreak: im not aaaddrfreak: ur the lier aaaddrfreak: u 2 faced hoe JaCkPoT 5k: So what if I am ? aaaddrfreak: ok than aaaddrfreak: wait till i tell every1 aaaddrfreak: so u wont have no one JaCkPoT 5k: Olivia is glad I dumped you aaaddrfreak: oh really aaaddrfreak: i no y aaaddrfreak: she u can under stand what ur missing JaCkPoT 5k: Not missing anything aaaddrfreak: ok manny aaaddrfreak: no need to be harsh JaCkPoT 5k: ur the one callin me a 2 facd hoe nd shit aaaddrfreak: well ur being mean manny aaaddrfreak: im friends with all of my x's aaaddrfreak: im not going ot change that now JaCkPoT 5k: Probably not this one aaaddrfreak: wtf aaaddrfreak: ok ur lose JaCkPoT 5k: Yup aaaddrfreak: manny dont b like this aaaddrfreak: ........... JaCkPoT 5k: ? aaaddrfreak: dont b like this aaaddrfreak: c'mon now aaaddrfreak: this is imature JaCkPoT 5k: I guess aaaddrfreak: it is aaaddrfreak: c'mon now JaCkPoT 5k: What ? JaCkPoT 5k: Come on what ? aaaddrfreak: i have to addmit manny i do love u but i think we need a break aaaddrfreak: no what i mean JaCkPoT 5k: ..? JaCkPoT 5k: We broke up aaaddrfreak: i no aaaddrfreak: but i mean like going out again JaCkPoT 5k: Me and you going out again ? aaaddrfreak: ? aaaddrfreak: um i said we need a break from that JaCkPoT 5k: I don't get it aaaddrfreak: um ok aaaddrfreak: if u ever want to go baq out with me i mean we will have to wait aaaddrfreak: like start over aaaddrfreak: before we can again JaCkPoT 5k: What do you start over ? JaCkPoT 5k: like I never knew you ? aaaddrfreak: no aaaddrfreak: like how we were when we first went out aaaddrfreak: with no problems JaCkPoT 5k: Oh aaaddrfreak: yea aaaddrfreak: i mean if u want to aaaddrfreak: ever go out again aaaddrfreak: thats up to u JaCkPoT 5k: You just said you won't let m JaCkPoT 5k: me* aaaddrfreak: um aaaddrfreak: manny ull have to promise me that a thing like this wont happen again aaaddrfreak: and im trusting u aaaddrfreak: thats how aaaddrfreak: cuz i hate being hurt JaCkPoT 5k: I promise..If I ever want to go back out with you JaCkPoT 5k: Just don't burn the little bear I gave you aaaddrfreak: lol aaaddrfreak: hahahahahah aaaddrfreak: ok aaaddrfreak: u 2 JaCkPoT 5k: I wo JaCkPoT 5k: won't JaCkPoT 5k: Goin to fall asleep with it JaCkPoT 5k: Cause it reminds me of you even though were not going out anymore aaaddrfreak: its ok aaaddrfreak: i think we both needed a break aaaddrfreak: u no what i mean JaCkPoT 5k: Yea aaaddrfreak: but maybe will go out sooner than we think JaCkPoT 5k: .... JaCkPoT 5k: maybe aaaddrfreak: yea i duno aaaddrfreak: but its all up to u JaCkPoT 5k: Meh JaCkPoT 5k: I'm goin to sleep aaaddrfreak: kk aaaddrfreak: manny JaCkPoT 5k: blah JaCkPoT 5k: What ?! JaCkPoT 5k: > JaCkPoT 5k: ?* aaaddrfreak: i just want to tell u that u can tell me n e thing ok. like if u need help with n e thing. talk to me ok aaaddrfreak: i can help aaaddrfreak: no matter how much i may not like the person aaaddrfreak: ok?? JaCkPoT 5k: If you say so aaaddrfreak: i mean it JaCkPoT 5k: Nite Sis' aaaddrfreak: no no no aaaddrfreak: bad bad bad JaCkPoT 5k: lol JaCkPoT 5k: Why ? JaCkPoT 5k: Were just friends for now aaaddrfreak: best friends is ok aaaddrfreak: sis no aaaddrfreak: i dont want to go baq out with my bro aaaddrfreak: ewwwwww JaCkPoT 5k: So you want to go back out with me ? aaaddrfreak: it sounds groww aaaddrfreak: to tell u the truth aaaddrfreak: yea aaaddrfreak: but its not up to me JaCkPoT 5k: You know what ? aaaddrfreak: ? JaCkPoT 5k signed on at 10:26:17 PM. JaCkPoT 5k: I only have one thing to say aaaddrfreak: what JaCkPoT 5k: JORGE!! aaaddrfreak: um aaaddrfreak: i have sumthing ot say to JaCkPoT 5k: ? aaaddrfreak: N.J JaCkPoT 5k: I can't do that to Jorge though JaCkPoT 5k: That's like my best friend JaCkPoT 5k: Just a different state aaaddrfreak: NUT HEY aaaddrfreak: BUT* aaaddrfreak: IF U DO WANT TO LET ME NO aaaddrfreak: KKK JaCkPoT 5k: ok aaaddrfreak: AND ILL HANDLE IT JaCkPoT 5k: Handle what ? aaaddrfreak: JORGE JaCkPoT 5k: What about him ? aaaddrfreak: NVM JaCkPoT 5k: No JaCkPoT 5k: What about him aaaddrfreak: I MEAN ME AND HIM JaCkPoT 5k: No JaCkPoT 5k: Have fun JaCkPoT 5k: I can't just have you do that cause I want you to aaaddrfreak: MANNY aaaddrfreak: JUST LET ME NO aaaddrfreak: OK JaCkPoT 5k: No aaaddrfreak: YES JaCkPoT 5k: I'll wait till you guys "break up' JaCkPoT 5k: "* aaaddrfreak: UM WHATS THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN JaCkPoT 5k: If I ever want you back JaCkPoT 5k: I'll wait till you break up aaaddrfreak: OK MANNY aaaddrfreak: BUT TELL ME OK aaaddrfreak: ? JaCkPoT 5k: No JaCkPoT 5k: I'll just find out from him aaaddrfreak: WHAT DO U MEAN aaaddrfreak: IM LOST JaCkPoT 5k: Nevermind JaCkPoT 5k: it aaaddrfreak: TELL ME JaCkPoT 5k: nvm aaaddrfreak: NO JaCkPoT 5k: I'm goin to sleep JaCkPoT 5k: G'Night aaaddrfreak: NIGHT FRIEND JaCkPoT 5k: Night aaaddrfreak: CALL ME 2MARROW JaCkPoT 5k: I just might JaCkPoT 5k: But remeber JaCkPoT 5k: Wait till you tell everyone JaCkPoT 5k: See who I have left ? aaaddrfreak: MANNY STOP IT JaCkPoT 5k: ok ok aaaddrfreak: GOSH JaCkPoT 5k: Jus as long as u dont try to get people to hate me JaCkPoT 5k: were cool aaaddrfreak: SAME WITH U JaCkPoT 5k: I wasn't going to try aaaddrfreak: SURE JaCkPoT 5k: I promise aaaddrfreak: OK aaaddrfreak: LOVE U(AS A FRIEND) JaCkPoT 5k: love u 2 aaaddrfreak: YAYAYAYA JaCkPoT 5k: lol JaCkPoT 5k: Night aaaddrfreak: NIGHT aaaddrfreak: alice1nHell: he's a fuckin scum bag alice1nHell: get over it aaaddrfreak: LOL aaaddrfreak: DONT IM HIM THOUGH JaCkPoT 5k signed off at 10:36:57 PM. JaCkPoT 5k: ? JaCkPoT 5k: Why did you send me that ? CaYlAnDsAmBFF: cuz CaYlAnDsAmBFF: thats why i have to think JaCkPoT 5k: I told you I regret everything I've said with I passion JaCkPoT 5k: I hate my self right now JaCkPoT 5k: Cayla JaCkPoT 5k: How long do you need to think ? CaYlAnDsAmBFF: 2 to 3 days CaYlAnDsAmBFF: is that ok with u CaYlAnDsAmBFF: ? JaCkPoT 5k: I.. JaCkPoT 5k: I'll give you till Sunday...If you are finished thinking about it before Sunday..Let me know CaYlAnDsAmBFF: kk CaYlAnDsAmBFF: thx a bunch JaCkPoT 5k: Yea.. JaCkPoT 5k: This hurts lol JaCkPoT 5k: But it's for you CaYlAnDsAmBFF: i no CaYlAnDsAmBFF: im srry JaCkPoT 5k: It's cool CaYlAnDsAmBFF: no it sint CaYlAnDsAmBFF: isnt* JaCkPoT 5k: It's ok... JaCkPoT 5k: I mean JaCkPoT 5k: I doubt your going to say "yes" but... JaCkPoT 5k: Nothing much I can do JaCkPoT 5k: Hey JaCkPoT 5k: Can we talk on the fone..Cause I gotta study CaYlAnDsAmBFF: im on the fone withjorge right noe JaCkPoT 5k: ouch JaCkPoT 5k: k CaYlAnDsAmBFF: im srry CaYlAnDsAmBFF: i didnt tell him n e thing ok JaCkPoT 5k: itz......ok JaCkPoT 5k: i dont give a fuck what you tell him JaCkPoT 5k: he cant do shit to me CaYlAnDsAmBFF: manny stopo it CaYlAnDsAmBFF: stop* JaCkPoT 5k: sorry CaYlAnDsAmBFF: tits ok JaCkPoT 5k: that hurts really bad CaYlAnDsAmBFF: wut? JaCkPoT 5k: everything.. JaCkPoT 5k: Can you answer this ? JaCkPoT 5k: How could you fall in love with someone that just seems sweet...Over the fone ? CaYlAnDsAmBFF: i duno JaCkPoT 5k: That's what really hurts.. JaCkPoT 5k: You fell in love with him so fast.. JaCkPoT 5k: Ok nvm CaYlAnDsAmBFF: no CaYlAnDsAmBFF: tell mr CaYlAnDsAmBFF: me* CaYlAnDsAmBFF: i did becuase he made me feel alot better wen u did that to me JaCkPoT 5k: But I want you back Cayla JaCkPoT 5k: You just don't know how bad JaCkPoT 5k: If I'm still crying right now since 6o'clock don't you think I would do anything to get you back ? CaYlAnDsAmBFF: um i duno JaCkPoT 5k: well im gunna go JaCkPoT 5k: call my cell or houz when u get off CaYlAnDsAmBFF: kkkkk JaCkPoT 5k: the fone with ***** JaCkPoT 5k: bye JaCkPoT 5k signed off at 7:33:47 PM. JaCkPoT 5k direct connection is closed. XGaurdianStrifeX: Bye Cayla XGaurdianStrifeX: Nice talking to you aaaddrfreak: kk aaaddrfreak: im not going n e where but ok XGaurdianStrifeX: Well, I had to say it because I didn't have time to on the phone aaaddrfreak: um kk aaaddrfreak: im lost XGaurdianStrifeX: lol XGaurdianStrifeX: Sorry aaaddrfreak: kk aaaddrfreak: why were u telling me to shut up aaaddrfreak: ? XGaurdianStrifeX: Ok, seriuosly, I'm sorry, I didn't mean to be gay, I was just bored aaaddrfreak: um ok aaaddrfreak: well i sound annoying right so whatever XGaurdianStrifeX: No, you don't at all aaaddrfreak: thats not what u said XGaurdianStrifeX: I was just playing, and I'm sorry, ok, I'm honestly a nice guy aaaddrfreak: im sure XGaurdianStrifeX: Is that sarcastic? aaaddrfreak: i duno yet aaaddrfreak: let me think about it aaaddrfreak: no XGaurdianStrifeX: Cool aaaddrfreak: why did manny say that u said that i sound hott on the fone XGaurdianStrifeX: Because I said it XGaurdianStrifeX: lol aaaddrfreak: um no i dont aaaddrfreak: i sound like a slut XGaurdianStrifeX: You have a sexy voice, I think, and no, you do not sound like a slut, lol, and what the hell does a slut sound like anyways aaaddrfreak: kk aaaddrfreak: i duno aaaddrfreak: sont tell but that 17 yr old was paid to make me and manny break up aaaddrfreak: but shhhhhh aaaddrfreak: dont tell aaaddrfreak: i have to play along aaaddrfreak: kk? XGaurdianStrifeX: Honestly?? aaaddrfreak: yep aaaddrfreak: u have to keep it on the d. l XGaurdianStrifeX: Of course, but, that's not nice.lol aaaddrfreak: i no aaaddrfreak: thats y im not worried aaaddrfreak: bout n e thing aaaddrfreak: cuz think about it aaaddrfreak: a 17 yr old likeing a 14 yr old aaaddrfreak: think about it aaaddrfreak: isnt that kinda odd aaaddrfreak: ? XGaurdianStrifeX: I just thought Manny was an attracting young man that women liked aaaddrfreak: hahahahahaha aaaddrfreak: im his 6 gf aaaddrfreak: i have my ways with things XGaurdianStrifeX: Wait, so you want to break up with him? aaaddrfreak: believe me i no aaaddrfreak: i did aaaddrfreak: cuz he wont stfu about 17 aaaddrfreak: its all just a game aaaddrfreak: and he takes it serioes aaaddrfreak: serious aaaddrfreak: my god XGaurdianStrifeX: Well...I can't say nothing...:-X aaaddrfreak: i no aaaddrfreak: plz dont aaaddrfreak: i beg of u XGaurdianStrifeX: I won't, but, Now i'm staying quite for both of you...:-X aaaddrfreak: what do u mean aaaddrfreak: every secret is safe with me aaaddrfreak: tell me one thing aaaddrfreak: did he do n e thing with her while he was going out with me aaaddrfreak: ? XGaurdianStrifeX: :-X aaaddrfreak: plz tell XGaurdianStrifeX: But you will tell on me...:-X aaaddrfreak: hell no i wont aaaddrfreak: if u say no than its no XGaurdianStrifeX: Well, he told me a story...of what happened... XGaurdianStrifeX: :-X aaaddrfreak: well.................. aaaddrfreak: was it with me aaaddrfreak: or jennifer XGaurdianStrifeX: No the 17 girl XGaurdianStrifeX: :-X aaaddrfreak: i no he felt christie up when he went out with jennifer aaaddrfreak: no was he going out with me at the time aaaddrfreak: or jennifer aaaddrfreak: ? aaaddrfreak: i mean at the time XGaurdianStrifeX: Well this happened like recently aaaddrfreak: ok what hapened XGaurdianStrifeX: :-X aaaddrfreak: plz XGaurdianStrifeX: But, he is my friend aaaddrfreak: idk aaaddrfreak: i wont tell aaaddrfreak: this is all just a part of her pay check n e way aaaddrfreak: so tell me XGaurdianStrifeX: Well,he told me that he was over her house and she gave him a drink, and she took the drink put it down and sat in front of him on his lap and starting making out with him...:-X XGaurdianStrifeX: You didn't hear anything from me aaaddrfreak: omg thats a real hor aaaddrfreak: but hey that was a game aaaddrfreak: thats all just a game XGaurdianStrifeX: But he says...nevermind...:-X aaaddrfreak: what do u mean aaaddrfreak: ? aaaddrfreak: nevermind? XGaurdianStrifeX: Nothing, can't speak anything more... XGaurdianStrifeX: :-X aaaddrfreak: no do aaaddrfreak: my god aaaddrfreak: plz do XGaurdianStrifeX: Look, Manny is my friend and, I can't backstab him aaaddrfreak: it will b worse for everyone if i have to ask her myself aaaddrfreak: its not baqstabbin aaaddrfreak: trust me XGaurdianStrifeX: How can I trust you, I just met you? aaaddrfreak: ull just have to take that risk aaaddrfreak: i trust u aaaddrfreak: i told u about the whole game thing aaaddrfreak: i trust u not to tell him XGaurdianStrifeX: True aaaddrfreak: ok than aaaddrfreak: do tell XGaurdianStrifeX: Lol, just a bit ago you were telling me to suck a dick XGaurdianStrifeX: Now, your forcing me to backstab aaaddrfreak: omg aaaddrfreak: u were pissing me off aaaddrfreak: just tell me aaaddrfreak: u can even all me and tell me if u wish XGaurdianStrifeX: No, you call me aaaddrfreak: no aaaddrfreak: u call me aaaddrfreak: plz plz plz plz XGaurdianStrifeX: I can't, you have to call me aaaddrfreak: why aaaddrfreak: ? XGaurdianStrifeX: Because, I don't know what my long distance is on my cell phone aaaddrfreak: kk aaaddrfreak: whats the # XGaurdianStrifeX: 732-668-8681 aaaddrfreak: ill call now XGaurdianStrifeX: Ugh, ok XGaurdianStrifeX: Why are you making me do this, Mejah is gonna kill me aaaddrfreak: what he dont no dont hurt him XGaurdianStrifeX: Good point, but...dam you aaaddrfreak: cuz i can XGaurdianStrifeX: lol aaaddrfreak: kk aaaddrfreak: so whAT did manny do uh uh uh aaaddrfreak: ? XGaurdianStrifeX: I don't know XGaurdianStrifeX: That's all he told me XGaurdianStrifeX: And that he loves her...I mean....:-X aaaddrfreak: omfg aaaddrfreak: bye bye manny aaaddrfreak: so he said that he loves her aaaddrfreak: ? aaaddrfreak: ? XGaurdianStrifeX: Do you have a pic?? aaaddrfreak: nope aaaddrfreak: i wish i did aaaddrfreak: no aaaddrfreak: KK XGaurdianStrifeX is no longer idle at 5:35:24 AM. XGaurdianStrifeX: Good night aaaddrfreak: NIGHT ] aaaddrfreak: lol XGaurdianStrifeX: lol aaaddrfreak: kk XGaurdianStrifeX: Now, don't be thinking naughty thoughts aaaddrfreak: i wont aaaddrfreak: i promise XGaurdianStrifeX: Yea, uhu XGaurdianStrifeX: lol aaaddrfreak: ill try aleast aaaddrfreak: lol XGaurdianStrifeX: You, bad girl aaaddrfreak: im not bad aaaddrfreak: XGaurdianStrifeX: Of course your not, I was kidding aaaddrfreak: lol aaaddrfreak: i ni aaaddrfreak: no* aaaddrfreak: XGaurdianStrifeX: ;-) aaaddrfreak: XGaurdianStrifeX: Alright, Good night froggy aaaddrfreak: night XGaurdianStrifeX: I' think you've had about enough of me aaaddrfreak: kk aaaddrfreak: ;* aaaddrfreak: :* aaaddrfreak: lol XGaurdianStrifeX: lol aaaddrfreak: =* aaaddrfreak: there we go aaaddrfreak: kk aaaddrfreak: night XGaurdianStrifeX: Night babe, ttyt aaaddrfreak: kk "babe" XGaurdianStrifeX: lol XGaurdianStrifeX: Behave now aaaddrfreak: i will XGaurdianStrifeX is away at 5:39:35 AM. aaaddrfreak: kk Auto response from XGaurdianStrifeX: Sleeping, leave one or call... XGaurdianStrifeX returned at 5:39:42 AM. XGaurdianStrifeX is away at 5:39:55 AM. JaCkPoT 5k: Hey........ aaaddrfreak: hey aaaddrfreak: hey ] aaaddrfreak: hey ' JaCkPoT 5k: So....You gonna do it Cay ? aaaddrfreak: do what? aaaddrfreak: im lost JaCkPoT 5k: Break up with me....I rather take the pain right now than wait for it......I read your l.j. aaaddrfreak: omg no u didnt JaCkPoT 5k: Yea....I did aaaddrfreak: img aaaddrfreak: i just don o what to do aaaddrfreak: dont* JaCkPoT 5k: Everything I told you about Jennifer and Olivia were true but you heard different stories and didn't want to believe me... JaCkPoT 5k: ...But I understand if you are thinkin about it...I'm a horrible person aaaddrfreak: its not that i dont want to believe u aaaddrfreak: its just hard aaaddrfreak: if u read it properly than u would no what im going through JaCkPoT 5k: Yea....I know.... JaCkPoT 5k: It was great goin out with you Cayla....It was the best relationship I had thus far....But if you want it to end....Please say it now JaCkPoT 5k: I'm just goin to let you know...That I probably will try to get you back sometime soon aaaddrfreak: ............................. aaaddrfreak: ::crying:: JaCkPoT 5k: I don't wanna cry Cay JaCkPoT 5k: But I love you so fucking much aaaddrfreak: ................................ JaCkPoT 5k: Cayla please don't break up with me JaCkPoT 5k: I'll make it up baby JaCkPoT 5k: bbe JaCkPoT 5k: babe* aaaddrfreak: ::crying:: JaCkPoT 5k: Baby to tell you the truth I'm crying cause I don't know what your going to do aaaddrfreak: ::crying:; aaaddrfreak: read this JaCkPoT 5k: ok Auto response from aaaddrfreak: ::crying:: im so confused about eveything and i need sometime. i odnt no what to do and im just so confused. when i thought i had love i new it wasnt real. now all the truth is sarting to break out and i have become so lost. sometimes i wonder if there is something out there worth living for or waiting for me. but maybe its just a spirit waiting for someone to open the door so it can ecape and distory the wotld but in the end ..........its all jaut a dream. day by day i smile and i dont no why but when i think about it i realize that ur the reason i smile. i have lost the battle and now i must fase the consiquences. i no i wont like it but it has become my fate to my ditruction. ::crying:: cayla. my cell is 561-699-1700 JaCkPoT 5k: Cayla JaCkPoT 5k: Trust me JaCkPoT 5k: I love you I swear to god aaaddrfreak: ........... aaaddrfreak: if u want to talk to me than call me aaaddrfreak: bye i love jorge but stephie u need to help me with sumthing and u no what it is. u can call me or ill call u:561-699-1700 wow this really sux. if manny hadnt broke up with me than none of this would have happened. u no what i mean. so this is all his fault. hey steph i have a q for u............................................................. do u have n e pics of me? if u dont thats ok. lots of love larien<3 Current Mood: ahahahahahahahahah (Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 1st, 2005
12:39 am	HEY HEY HEY PEOPLE. U GUYS WONT BELIEVE THIS BUT I THINK I HAVE FOIND THE MAN OF MY DREAMS. HIS NAME IS JORGE AND HE IS ALMOST 17 BUT WHO CARES..... NOT ME CUZ I LOVE HIM SO MUCH. HE MEANS THE WORLD TO ME. I MEAN HE IS SO SWEET AND IS ALWAYS TELLING ME HOW BEAUTIFUL I AM AND STUFF LIKE THAT. WELL MANNY BROKE UP WITH ME. BUT IDC N E MORE. SEEE LOOK AT THIS: JaCkPoT 5k: who was on the fone Auto response from aaaddrfreak: close my eyes let the whole thing pass me, there is no time to waist asking why, ill run away with u by my side,ill run away with u by my side, i need u echo echo echo in my mind , until this echo echo echo echo in my mind, until this echo echo echo echo can subside aaaddrfreak: i cant tell aaaddrfreak: i cant do that to them JaCkPoT 5k: then dont aaaddrfreak: ok aaaddrfreak: y r u bing mean 2 mean aaaddrfreak: a time out doesnt mean that u have to treat the other person like shit JaCkPoT 5k: cuz im not in the mood ne more\ aaaddrfreak: what do u mena aaaddrfreak: mean* JaCkPoT 5k: duno i jus dun feel like being nice 2 ne one aaaddrfreak: y aaaddrfreak: this was all ur desicion JaCkPoT 5k: i kno JaCkPoT 5k: itz not that but im readin ur lj so hold on aaaddrfreak: kk JaCkPoT 5k: HOW CAN A 17 YR OLD LIKE A 14 YR OLD. I MEAN C'MON NOW. SHE MUST B PRETTY UGLY IF SHE CANT FIND A GUY HER OWN AGE OR CLOSE TO IT. EITHER SHE IS A HOE LOOKING FOR SEX OR SHE IS JUST DOING THIS TO MAKE HIM LIKE HER AND THEN B LIKE EWWWWW GET THE FUK AWAY FROM ME. THATS SAD. IF I WAS GOING OUT WITH SUM 1 THAT YOUNGER THAN ME I WAS B EMBARRSSED CUZ THAT WOULD B WRONG. I MEAN THINK ABOUT IT. ITS JUST NOT RIGHT. JaCkPoT 5k: she likes me cuz JaCkPoT 5k: im cute JaCkPoT 5k: and my personality JaCkPoT 5k: it's not all about age aaaddrfreak: omg aaaddrfreak: shut up JaCkPoT 5k: my sisters bf is 37 JaCkPoT 5k: my sister is 24 JaCkPoT 5k: ok ? JaCkPoT 5k: ok aaaddrfreak: thats different JaCkPoT 5k: its jus an AGE difference aaaddrfreak: ur gay ok JaCkPoT 5k: no im not aaaddrfreak: than why r u being like this to me aaaddrfreak: my god JaCkPoT 5k: cuz i am JaCkPoT 5k: dusn mean im gay aaaddrfreak: y though manny JaCkPoT 5k: cause ur always talkin shit about Kristy aaaddrfreak: so u like her JaCkPoT 5k: What does it matter to you ? aaaddrfreak: it does cuz i love u aaaddrfreak: i mean aaaddrfreak: what if i told u that i was going out with jorge aaaddrfreak: wouldnt u be up set JaCkPoT 5k: no aaaddrfreak: y not JaCkPoT 5k: he lives in N.J. aaaddrfreak: so JaCkPoT 5k: too far away to do ne thing aaaddrfreak: welll still just the thought aaaddrfreak: doesnt it hurt JaCkPoT 5k: no aaaddrfreak: so u dont care botu me n e more aaaddrfreak: cuz o the time out thing JaCkPoT 5k: it doesn't hurt JaCkPoT 5k: cause of the possibility of u guys gettin together to do ne thing aaaddrfreak: but manny think bout it aaaddrfreak: it hurts me when u say that aout kristy JaCkPoT 5k: say what ? aaaddrfreak: like aaaddrfreak: stop saying that about her aaaddrfreak: no shes not aaaddrfreak: things like that ] JaCkPoT 5k: Well don't say it about her JaCkPoT 5k: She's never said anything about yo JaCkPoT 5k: you* aaaddrfreak: i dk aaaddrfreak: think about it aaaddrfreak: she is all over u even though u have a gf aaaddrfreak: thats a hoe aaaddrfreak: and........... JaCkPoT 5k: She doesn't have a bf aaaddrfreak: she "likes" u and ahe is 17 JaCkPoT 5k: So why not try to get with someone aaaddrfreak: um JaCkPoT 5k: That doesn't matter.. aaaddrfreak: not if they have a gf JaCkPoT 5k: Only 3 years older aaaddrfreak: it doesnt matter JaCkPoT 5k: Exactly JaCkPoT 5k: It doesn't matter aaaddrfreak: my god aaaddrfreak: do u still wana go out with me JaCkPoT 5k: Not sure....You seem to have such a problem with a 14 yr old going out with a 17 yr old aaaddrfreak: its wrong JaCkPoT 5k: Not really... aaaddrfreak: even my dad said thats a hoe JaCkPoT 5k: I don't care what anybody says JaCkPoT 5k: You shouldn't care what people say aaaddrfreak: than why do u care so much wen people atlk about us aaaddrfreak: uh uh uh JaCkPoT 5k: I don't JaCkPoT 5k: I don't do much about it do I ? aaaddrfreak: nope JaCkPoT 5k: Exactly...I don't care aaaddrfreak: omg aaaddrfreak: so thats what this whole time out thing is about JaCkPoT 5k: What ? aaaddrfreak: 17 JaCkPoT 5k: Where'd that come from ? aaaddrfreak: nvm aaaddrfreak: so u can do stuff with her aaaddrfreak: thats what people say say say JaCkPoT 5k: If I want to do stuff with her JaCkPoT 5k: Then I just might JaCkPoT 5k: But I have no intentions of that right now aaaddrfreak: ok aaaddrfreak: so how long is this going to last JaCkPoT 5k: I don't know JaCkPoT 5k: You keep talking about Kristy that way... JaCkPoT 5k: I just don't know aaaddrfreak: so wut aaaddrfreak: its not just me ok JaCkPoT 5k: You're the one who started it aaaddrfreak: no im not ok JaCkPoT 5k: All you had to do was keep your mouth shut aaaddrfreak: it was amk and olivia JaCkPoT 5k: YEa whateve aaaddrfreak: i dont have to do n e thing JaCkPoT 5k: r aaaddrfreak: its true aaaddrfreak: they r the ones telling about it JaCkPoT 5k: If you really wanna know I do like her a bit aaaddrfreak: i no that ok aaaddrfreak: manny i do love u but c'mon now JaCkPoT 5k: no aaaddrfreak: yes JaCkPoT 5k: I not coming on at al JaCkPoT 5k: all JaCkPoT 5k: Im not abiding aaaddrfreak: ok ok lets drop it all JaCkPoT 5k: Everything ? JaCkPoT 5k: mow JaCkPoT 5k: No* JaCkPoT 5k: I didn't do all this to just drop it aaaddrfreak: no i mean aaaddrfreak: the fighting thing JaCkPoT 5k: w/e JaCkPoT 5k: I'm jus listinin to a song that boosts me to do anything I was JaCkPoT 5k: want* aaaddrfreak: manny do u still like me aaaddrfreak: ? JaCkPoT 5k: Yea aaaddrfreak: r u sure aaaddrfreak: ? JaCkPoT 5k: no aaaddrfreak: manny thats not funny JaCkPoT 5k: I'm serious aaaddrfreak: ok JaCkPoT 5k: I can't do it JaCkPoT 5k: For now JaCkPoT 5k: I cant hurt you JaCkPoT 5k: I like her JaCkPoT 5k: It's over aaaddrfreak: u no manny r u sure aaaddrfreak: cuz im not going to go baq out with u aaaddrfreak: i had to deal with this 4 to 5 times and i cant take it n e more JaCkPoT 5k: I love you JaCkPoT 5k: but it's over aaaddrfreak: wtf? aaaddrfreak: u cant love sum 1 and break up with them aaaddrfreak: im telling u manny JaCkPoT 5k: yea u can JaCkPoT 5k: I jus did aaaddrfreak: this is ur last chance JaCkPoT 5k: I don't care aaaddrfreak: me neither manny aaaddrfreak: let me ask u this aaaddrfreak: do u ever want to go baq out with me JaCkPoT 5k: Not sure JaCkPoT 5k: But why JaCkPoT 5k: I can't! JaCkPoT 5k: You just said so yourself aaaddrfreak: what did i say aaaddrfreak: ? aaaddrfreak: whatever aaaddrfreak: its over idk aaaddrfreak: im going out with jorge aaaddrfreak: so im over it JaCkPoT 5k: I KNOW IT'S OVER JaCkPoT 5k: I JUST SAID THAT..DUH! aaaddrfreak: kk aaaddrfreak: good aaaddrfreak: go fuk ur hoe JaCkPoT 5k: No prob aaaddrfreak: kk aaaddrfreak: hope u get aids JaCkPoT 5k: Don't worry I won't JaCkPoT 5k: By the way you've been dumped aaaddrfreak: ok manny aaaddrfreak: i still love u and all aaaddrfreak: but manny this is all dumb JaCkPoT 5k: DUMPED aaaddrfreak: omfg aaaddrfreak: whatever manny JaCkPoT 5k: I'll always be Jorge's friend....Me and him are Bro's for life aaaddrfreak: um just to tell u she is going out with sum 1 and she is getting paid to go out with u aaaddrfreak: have fun!!!!! JaCkPoT 5k: I'm not going out with anyone JaCkPoT 5k: You damn pathalogical liar aaaddrfreak: im not aaaddrfreak: ur the lier aaaddrfreak: u 2 faced hoe JaCkPoT 5k: So what if I am ? aaaddrfreak: ok than aaaddrfreak: wait till i tell every1 aaaddrfreak: so u wont have no one JaCkPoT 5k: Olivia is glad I dumped you aaaddrfreak: oh really aaaddrfreak: i no y aaaddrfreak: she u can under stand what ur missing JaCkPoT 5k: Not missing anything aaaddrfreak: ok manny aaaddrfreak: no need to be harsh JaCkPoT 5k: ur the one callin me a 2 facd hoe nd shit aaaddrfreak: well ur being mean manny aaaddrfreak: im friends with all of my x's aaaddrfreak: im not going ot change that now JaCkPoT 5k: Probably not this one aaaddrfreak: wtf aaaddrfreak: ok ur lose JaCkPoT 5k: Yup aaaddrfreak: manny dont b like this aaaddrfreak: ........... JaCkPoT 5k: ? aaaddrfreak: dont b like this aaaddrfreak: c'mon now aaaddrfreak: this is imature JaCkPoT 5k: I guess aaaddrfreak: it is aaaddrfreak: c'mon now JaCkPoT 5k: What ? JaCkPoT 5k: Come on what ? aaaddrfreak: i have to addmit manny i do love u but i think we need a break aaaddrfreak: no what i mean JaCkPoT 5k: ..? JaCkPoT 5k: We broke up aaaddrfreak: i no aaaddrfreak: but i mean like going out again JaCkPoT 5k: Me and you going out again ? aaaddrfreak: ? aaaddrfreak: um i said we need a break from that JaCkPoT 5k: I don't get it aaaddrfreak: um ok aaaddrfreak: if u ever want to go baq out with me i mean we will have to wait aaaddrfreak: like start over aaaddrfreak: before we can again JaCkPoT 5k: What do you start over ? JaCkPoT 5k: like I never knew you ? aaaddrfreak: no aaaddrfreak: like how we were when we first went out aaaddrfreak: with no problems JaCkPoT 5k: Oh aaaddrfreak: yea aaaddrfreak: i mean if u want to aaaddrfreak: ever go out again aaaddrfreak: thats up to u JaCkPoT 5k: You just said you won't let m JaCkPoT 5k: me* aaaddrfreak: um aaaddrfreak: manny ull have to promise me that a thing like this wont happen again aaaddrfreak: and im trusting u aaaddrfreak: thats how aaaddrfreak: cuz i hate being hurt JaCkPoT 5k: I promise..If I ever want to go back out with you JaCkPoT 5k: Just don't burn the little bear I gave you aaaddrfreak: lol aaaddrfreak: hahahahahah aaaddrfreak: ok aaaddrfreak: u 2 JaCkPoT 5k: I wo JaCkPoT 5k: won't JaCkPoT 5k: Goin to fall asleep with it JaCkPoT 5k: Cause it reminds me of you even though were not going out anymore aaaddrfreak: its ok aaaddrfreak: i think we both needed a break aaaddrfreak: u no what i mean JaCkPoT 5k: Yea aaaddrfreak: but maybe will go out sooner than we think JaCkPoT 5k: .... JaCkPoT 5k: maybe aaaddrfreak: yea i duno aaaddrfreak: but its all up to u JaCkPoT 5k: Meh JaCkPoT 5k: I'm goin to sleep aaaddrfreak: kk aaaddrfreak: manny JaCkPoT 5k: blah JaCkPoT 5k: What ?! JaCkPoT 5k: > JaCkPoT 5k: ?* aaaddrfreak: i just want to tell u that u can tell me n e thing ok. like if u need help with n e thing. talk to me ok aaaddrfreak: i can help aaaddrfreak: no matter how much i may not like the person aaaddrfreak: ok?? JaCkPoT 5k: If you say so aaaddrfreak: i mean it JaCkPoT 5k: Nite Sis' aaaddrfreak: no no no aaaddrfreak: bad bad bad JaCkPoT 5k: lol JaCkPoT 5k: Why ? JaCkPoT 5k: Were just friends for now aaaddrfreak: best friends is ok aaaddrfreak: sis no aaaddrfreak: i dont want to go baq out with my bro aaaddrfreak: ewwwwww JaCkPoT 5k: So you want to go back out with me ? aaaddrfreak: it sounds groww aaaddrfreak: to tell u the truth aaaddrfreak: yea aaaddrfreak: but its not up to me JaCkPoT 5k: You know what ? aaaddrfreak: ? JaCkPoT 5k signed on at 10:26:17 PM. JaCkPoT 5k: I only have one thing to say aaaddrfreak: what JaCkPoT 5k: JORGE!! aaaddrfreak: um aaaddrfreak: i have sumthing ot say to JaCkPoT 5k: ? aaaddrfreak: N.J JaCkPoT 5k: I can't do that to Jorge though JaCkPoT 5k: That's like my best friend JaCkPoT 5k: Just a different state aaaddrfreak: NUT HEY aaaddrfreak: BUT* aaaddrfreak: IF U DO WANT TO LET ME NO aaaddrfreak: KKK JaCkPoT 5k: ok aaaddrfreak: AND ILL HANDLE IT JaCkPoT 5k: Handle what ? aaaddrfreak: JORGE JaCkPoT 5k: What about him ? aaaddrfreak: NVM JaCkPoT 5k: No JaCkPoT 5k: What about him aaaddrfreak: I MEAN ME AND HIM JaCkPoT 5k: No JaCkPoT 5k: Have fun JaCkPoT 5k: I can't just have you do that cause I want you to aaaddrfreak: MANNY aaaddrfreak: JUST LET ME NO aaaddrfreak: OK JaCkPoT 5k: No aaaddrfreak: YES JaCkPoT 5k: I'll wait till you guys "break up' JaCkPoT 5k: "* aaaddrfreak: UM WHATS THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN JaCkPoT 5k: If I ever want you back JaCkPoT 5k: I'll wait till you break up aaaddrfreak: OK MANNY aaaddrfreak: BUT TELL ME OK aaaddrfreak: ? JaCkPoT 5k: No JaCkPoT 5k: I'll just find out from him aaaddrfreak: WHAT DO U MEAN aaaddrfreak: IM LOST JaCkPoT 5k: Nevermind JaCkPoT 5k: it aaaddrfreak: TELL ME JaCkPoT 5k: nvm aaaddrfreak: NO JaCkPoT 5k: I'm goin to sleep JaCkPoT 5k: G'Night aaaddrfreak: NIGHT FRIEND JaCkPoT 5k: Night aaaddrfreak: CALL ME 2MARROW JaCkPoT 5k: I just might JaCkPoT 5k: But remeber JaCkPoT 5k: Wait till you tell everyone JaCkPoT 5k: See who I have left ? aaaddrfreak: MANNY STOP IT JaCkPoT 5k: ok ok aaaddrfreak: GOSH JaCkPoT 5k: Jus as long as u dont try to get people to hate me JaCkPoT 5k: were cool aaaddrfreak: SAME WITH U JaCkPoT 5k: I wasn't going to try aaaddrfreak: SURE JaCkPoT 5k: I promise aaaddrfreak: OK aaaddrfreak: LOVE U(AS A FRIEND) JaCkPoT 5k: love u 2 aaaddrfreak: YAYAYAYA JaCkPoT 5k: lol JaCkPoT 5k: Night aaaddrfreak: NIGHT aaaddrfreak: alice1nHell: he's a fuckin scum bag alice1nHell: get over it aaaddrfreak: LOL aaaddrfreak: DONT IM HIM THOUGH JaCkPoT 5k signed off at 10:36:57 PM. AND NOW HE WANTS TO GO BAQ OUT WITH ME. HE IS LIKE BEGGING ME. BUT I LOVE JORGE SO FUKING MUCH. U GUYS DONT EVEN NO. I HOPE WE R TOGETHER FOREVER. MWA MWA MWA. I LOVE U JORGE. LOTS OF LOVE LARIEN............. HAPPY FOR ONCE Current Mood: I LOVE JORGE (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, February 27th, 2005
12:55 pm	OMFG PEOPLE. WE ALL NEED TO TALK. I HEARD FROM PEOPLE THAT MANNY IS DOING SHIT WITH OTHER GIRLS. WHAT THE FUK IS UP WITH THAT. I MEAN OK THIS 17 YEAR OLD GIRL SUPOSIDLY LIKES HIM RIGHT. AND HE SAYS THAT HE DOESNT LIKE HER RIGHT? WELL PEOPLE R SAYING THAT HE DOES. MY GOD IF HE WANTS TO GO OUT WITH HER THAN LET HIM GO HEAD. I JUST NEED TO NO. I DONT WANA B HURT N E MORE. I MEAN I THOUGHT THAT I FOUND THE RIGHT GUY........ BUT I WAS WRONG. GOD WAS I WRONG. I MEAN I DO LOVE HIM BUT I MEAN WHY IS HE DOING THIS TO ME. HE IS ACTING ALL WERID. MY GOD. I EVEN HAVE PROOF THAT PEOPLE SAID IT SO IF U WANT MORE INFO IM ME.OK CUZ MANNY ISNT SUPPOSED TO NO THAT I NO. BUT N E WAY~ GOD IM SO LOST. PEOPLE R TELLING TO DUMP HIM BUT I LOVE HIM AND I CANT DO THAT. I DONT NO WHAT TO DO N E MORE. IM JUST SO LOST. PEOPLE THESE DAYS DONT NO HOW TO TREAT PEOPLE THESE DAYS. ~BY THE WAY~ HOW CAN A 17 YR OLD LIKE A 14 YR OLD. I MEAN C'MON NOW. SHE MUST B PRETTY UGLY IF SHE CANT FIND A GUY HER OWN AGE OR CLOSE TO IT. EITHER SHE IS A HOE LOOKING FOR SEX OR SHE IS JUST DOING THIS TO MAKE HIM LIKE HER AND THEN B LIKE EWWWWW GET THE FUK AWAY FROM ME. THATS SAD. IF I WAS GOING OUT WITH SUM 1 THAT YOUNGER THAN ME I WAS B EMBARRSSED CUZ THAT WOULD B WRONG. I MEAN THINK ABOUT IT. ITS JUST NOT RIGHT. ~N E WAY~ BUT YEA THIS REALLY PISSES ME OFF. I REALLY DONT NO WHAT TO DO N E MORE. IM SO SICK OF THIS SHIT. MAYBE I SHOULD BREAK UP WITH HIM. I DONT NO N E MORE. I SO DEPRESSED ALL THE TIME. ALL I DO IS TRY TO MAKE MANNY FEEL BETER AND MAKE HIM FEEL SPECIAL BUT LATELY HE HAS EEN SPITTING IN MY FACE. I JUST DONT HET IT N E MORE. IM SO DAM LOST. I WAS GOING TO GO OVER TODAY BUT IM NOT SURE THAT HE WANTS ME TO. MY PERIOD EVEN STOPPED TODAY AND I WAS GOING TO GIVE MANNY SUMTHING SPECIAL BUT I NO THAT DEEP INSIDE HE DOESNT LOVE ME. HE LOVES SUM ONE THAT DOENST EVEN LOVE HIM BAQ. THATS THE SAD THING ABOUT IT. I FEEL SO BAD FOR HIM. AND I SIT AND THINK WOW EVERYTHING HE EVER TOLD ME WAS A LIE. AND IT HURTS. BUT I MEAN OMFG. THIS HAS HAPPEND LIKE 3 TIMES BEFORE AND I JUST CANT TAKE IT N E MORE. HE ALWAYS THINK THAT HE HAS FOUND SUM 1 BETTER THAN ME BUT IN THE END HE REALIZES WHAT HE HAS LOST AND HE COMES CRAWLING BAQ TO ME. NOT N E MORE. I WONT LET MYSELF GET HURT N E MORE. EVEN THOUGH I LOVE HIM IF HE BREAKS UP WITH ME I JUST CANT B WITH HIM AGAIN. MY GOD I WISH THAT ALL OF THIS SHIT WOULD STOP. I HATE WHEN SHIT LIKE THIS HAPPENS...... N E WAY IM GOING TO SIT AND CRY IN A CORNER BY MYSELF. IF U WANA TALK. IM ME OR CALL MY CELL 561 6991700. I LOVE U MANNY ~LOTS OF LOVE~ LARIEN WITH A BROKEN HEART Current Mood: c the icon manny? dont do this (Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 23rd, 2005
7:23 pm	OMFG. IM SO SICK AND TIRED OF PEOPLE TALKING SHIT ABOUT ME. I HATE WHEN PEOPLE DO THAT SHIT. I DONT DESEREV THIS N E MORE. I JUST GOING TO GIVE UP EVERYTHING. MANNY JUST DOESNT GET IT AND I TRY AND TRY TO LET HIM BE THERE FOR ME BUT PEOPLE LIKE OLIVIA AND SAM GET IN THE WAY AND RUIN EVERYTHING FOR ME AND I WILL NEVER FORGIVE THEM FOR THAT. MANNY IS ALWAYS HANGING UP ON ME AND SHIT LIKE THAT NOW AND PEOPL ER TELLING HIM THAT I CHEAT IN HIM AND SHIT LIKE THAT. AND OLIVIA IS BEING A HOR AND SHE IS GOING BAQ OUT WITH SCOTT EVEN THOUGH HE CHEATED ON HER AND SHE IS PUTTING THAT SHIT ON ME AND SAM AND CESAR R IN A FIGHT AND MANNY HATES ME AND MY CUZIN IS A HOR. MY DAD YELLS AT ME AND I FEEL LIKE MY LIFE IS OVER. I HATE THIS FUKING WORLD I WISH THAT I WAS NEVER BORN I HATE EVERYTHING RIGHT NOW I DONT NO WHAT TO DO N E MORE. I CANT TAKE IT N E MORE AND I WONT KICK MY SELF IN THE ASS AL THE TIME CUZ PEOPLE DONT NO HOW TO SHUT THEIR FUKING MOUTH. I HATE MYSELF FOR EVEN TRYING TO HELP PEOPLE N E MORE. I SHOULD HAVE JUST SAID IM SRRY AND WALKED AWAY. IM SUCH A DUMB ASS. I DONT NO WHAT IM GOING TO DO N E MORE. I HATE LIFE. WHAT DID I DO FOR EVERYBODY TO START TALKING SHIT ABOUT ME. IM SO PISSED I THINK IM GOING TO MOVE BAQ TO MELBOURNE. I CANT TAKE THIS N E MORE. IM SO LOST. I JUST HATE ERYBODY RIGHT NOW. I DONT NO WHO TO TRUST N E MORE. I CANT EVEN TRUST MYSELF. I JUST GO TO SKOOL AND EVERYBODY SAYS HEY ITS CAYLA LETS GIVE HER ALL OF OUR PROBLEMS AND MAKE HER FEEL LIKE SHIT. AND I GO HOME WOTH ALL OF THAT PAIN AND JUST SIT HOME AND CRY AND CRY ALL NIGHT LONG. IT SEEM LIKE THATS WHAT I HAVE BEEN DOING LATELY. I JUST CANT DEAL WITH THAT N E MORE. I TRY TO HELP MY OWN SISTER SAM AND ITS LIKE SHE DOESNT EVEN CARE BUT SHE WILL WHEN THIS CESAR THING GOES. I BET SHE WILL. SHE'LL GET IT. I NO SHE WILL. IM NOT TRYING TO SOUND MEAN BUT SHE HAS TO LEARN THE HARD WAY. EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON. THATS JUST LIFE. I NO IT SUX BUT WE LIVE IT N E WAY. WELL N E WAY I LOVE MANNY I NO I DO BUT I HAVE A FEELING THAT HE DOESNT LOVE ME AS MUCH AS HE USED TO OR AS MUCH AS HE SAYS THAT HE DOES. I DUNO. IM JUST LOST. I NEED TO TALK TO MR. TORRES TOMARROW AND TAALK TO HIM. IT SEEM LIKE HE IS THE ONLY ONE THAT CAN HELP ME RIGHT NOW. BUT N E WAY UNTIL I TALK TO HIM TOMARROW DURING INTERACT THIS IS HOW I FEEL.... BUT N E WAY ............ CONCRETE ANGEL: Concrete Angel She walks to school with the lunch she packed Nobody knows what she's holdin' back Wearin' the same dress she wore yesterday She hides the bruises with linen and lace The teacher wonders but she doesn't ask It's hard to see the pain behind the mask Bearing the burden of a secret storm Sometimes she wishes she was never born Through the wind and the rain She stands hard as a stone In a world that she can't rise above But her dreams give her wings And she flies to a place where she's loved Concrete angel Somebody cries in the middle of the night The neighbors hear, but they turn out the lights A fragile soul caught in the hands of fate When morning comes it'll be too late Through the wind and the rain She stands hard as a stone In a world that she can't rise above But her dreams give her wings And she flies to a place where she's loved Concrete angel A statue stands in a shaded place An angel girl with an upturned face A name is written on a polished rock A broken heart that the world forgot Through the wind and the rain She stands hard as a stone In a world that she can't rise above But her dreams give her wings And she flies to a place where she's loved Concrete angel well i love u manny and im going to go cry in a corner and feel bad for myself and kick my ass and wich that i was ever born. so right again when im done . wich might be never again. larien Current Mood: im srry for even livining (6 Comments |Comment on this)
8:19 am	hahahahaha um having fun today. i am having such a suky week though. but n e way ill tell u all bout it lata. kk. but yea i just wanted to say hi and go to this web site www.gaypimp.com and go to jonny mcgovern is the gay pimp kk. its so fuking funny. and if u wana check out my other journal its on www.xanga.com well i g2g oh and its that same sn aas on lj. kk well i g2g to skool love u manny. bye Current Mood: mwa (2 Comments |Comment on this)